theslowesthand
Banned
Playing some death metal - Carcass. I'm kinda feelin it. Maybe i should get the lyrics?
I can never get "close enough" to death, to make me feel any more hopeful/etc about life.
Nor can i take you-only-live-once chances/risks (make the associated choices/decisions).
Desperation level has just gone up a notch. This is what happens when you suffer endless boredom & hopelessness, day-in-day-out, year-in-year-out, decade-in-decade-out.
About to count the pills in the 2 bottles i have hoarded (sth to do).
I think i barely feel alive for most of the time.
Need some f*ckin spirits, godammit!!! (but beer will have to do)
This music is KICKING F*CKING A5S!!!
I can never get "close enough" to death, to make me feel any more hopeful/etc about life.
Nor can i take you-only-live-once chances/risks (make the associated choices/decisions).
Desperation level has just gone up a notch. This is what happens when you suffer endless boredom & hopelessness, day-in-day-out, year-in-year-out, decade-in-decade-out.
About to count the pills in the 2 bottles i have hoarded (sth to do).
I think i barely feel alive for most of the time.
Need some f*ckin spirits, godammit!!! (but beer will have to do)
This music is KICKING F*CKING A5S!!!
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