theslowesthand
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Yep, same here, for sure. But i usually avoid thinking about it. I just try to be happy in the moment, & try to endure my suffering as best as i can.
How are you feeling?
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Yep, same here, for sure. But i usually avoid thinking about it. I just try to be happy in the moment, & try to endure my suffering as best as i can.
defiance
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Hang in there the best you can. I am only sticking around so I won't cause pain to a few people that still matter quite a bit to me. I can't put them through that kind of pain, as if me being a loser wasn't painful enough for them. I wish I could offer words of comfort and wisdom but I can't. My depression also hits me the hardest in the morning when I wake up because now I have to go through the same motions as I always do, pain and more pain. Best of luck to you. Hope you feel better soon.
Kiwong
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I dream of flying away becoming a bird, no need for human words or thoughts anymore.
The Radiohead song "how to disappear completely" really resonates with me.
As hard as the human world is, and how fearful my existence has become, the natural world I would miss terribly.
The Radiohead song "how to disappear completely" really resonates with me.
As hard as the human world is, and how fearful my existence has become, the natural world I would miss terribly.
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Kiwong
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Aww... ya b@$%@*¿$!! Well, that's me wakened 2 hours earlier than planned. F**k! 
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Thanks to my local window cleaners - the c*nts! :veryangry: That'll be me in a crabbit, grumpy mood this morning. :thumbdown:
h:Thanks to my local window cleaners - the c*nts! :veryangry: That'll be me in a crabbit, grumpy mood this morning. :thumbdown:
AtTheGates
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damn its going to be a long day but I think we get out early...after we get sprayed with mace.....idk how I'm going to be able to drive home after that though..
Learning baton defense will be fun though hopefully
I'm ready for this week to be over so I can get away from people for a while. sitting in a crowded classroom is so uncomfortable .
Learning baton defense will be fun though hopefully
I'm ready for this week to be over so I can get away from people for a while. sitting in a crowded classroom is so uncomfortable .
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
In better mood now. Don't know if it'll last. :idontknow:
Still not getting an internet connection via ma laptop... again! :thumbdown:
Ye would think they give ye better service, considering how yer bloody paying for it.h:
Still not getting an internet connection via ma laptop... again! :thumbdown:
Ye would think they give ye better service, considering how yer bloody paying for it.
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defiance
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I had such a wonderful dream. I was happy and felt free of all my burdens. I remember yelling in my dreams "THIS IS PARADISE....THIS IS TRUE HAPPINESS"......then I woke up to reality. I was filled with the opposite of what I felt in my dreams. If I could have stayed in that dream forever, then life would just be amazing. It was so peaceful and calm. When I woke up, I was miserable again as I knew what my day was going to be about. I'm just so tired of it all that any relief I can get, real or not, I will take it.:sad:
MollyBeGood
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I can relate. I was dreaming of Matt Dillon (where did that come from lol) just giving me a sexy look like he wanted to sleep with me and that took away some of the pain of existence for a bit. Yep I would have liked to have stayed in that dream but they never turn out that great either. I have to get some lucid dreaming skills before I die.
defiance
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Mastering lucid dreaming would be amazing.
GraybeardGhost
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I really feel like giving up tonight.
defiance
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I'm right there with you. I have been feeling like this all too frequently:kickingmyself:
theslowesthand
Banned
Yes it would.
I can't believe some of the ridiculousness that i fall for in dreams. I'm so gullible to lies
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theslowesthand
Banned
Just trying to get through the day in one piece. Man, my life's hard enough as it is, without struggling with depression. A bit less depressed today, but the day is still unbearably long. :sad:
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theslowesthand
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I was going so well, for the last few months, until this week. The depression returned, for no apparent reason. These are the times when you're like 'what the hell, just go and top yourself already'. If only it were that easy... :sad:
MollyBeGood
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I cannot believe how debilitating it is to not have enough money to do anything. I have great business ideas, I need start up money so badly it is killing me. I know I could do many great things if I could qualify for a loan of some sort.
I hate that I cannot even be considered because I tried and failed financially before.
How to hell are you suppose to learn if you don't have the opportunity to try and fail?
Rich people have it so fuking easy. They can go around stealing ideas, ruining the planet and using people like slaves all the while hording all of the money. Am I the only one who this makes mad? smh
I hate that I cannot even be considered because I tried and failed financially before.
How to hell are you suppose to learn if you don't have the opportunity to try and fail?
Rich people have it so fuking easy. They can go around stealing ideas, ruining the planet and using people like slaves all the while hording all of the money. Am I the only one who this makes mad? smh
MollyBeGood
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I am sorry. I know how you feel. Don't worry it will pass.
defiance
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Well I am happy to hear that you get breaks from it. Every now and then I get a break from it but rarely. I know the feeling of wanting the pain to end all to well. I was asking myself this question this morning "If I am on this planet and I get no joy and only pain out of it, why should I stick around?" The only answer I found was so the few people that matter to me won't be miserable when I am gone. I am literally alive so a few people won't be sad. Hang in there until this s**t storm passes, and hopefully soon.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
I can relate. Well, from the stand-point of someone with a physical disability, I can relate to wanting the pain to end. And for things to get easier.