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Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Totally knackered, ah should've woke up with feelin' aw excited.
Yet ah woke up and quietly utter 3 words that'll likely set the tone for ma weekend...

"FOR F**K SAKE!!" :kickingmyself:​

^ This being my response to hearin' ma older sister n' brother-in-law arguing as they usual everytime they come to visit. :thumbdown:

Though, I'm hoping the weather stays dry when I'm in Edinburgh over the next 2 days. :praying:
 
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Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Feckin' brilliant! But ah cannae go intae too much detail here. Let's just that...

Ah wouldn't forget August 5th 2016 in a hurry.

Today started on bad note... like it couldnae get any worse. Then it almost did, as me n' my oldest sister were ready to argue, which would've just end in tears for both o' us. But we didnae, taking the more Zen Buddhist on the situation which, while greatly disappointing, wus beyond our control. Even though she's partly to blame... :giggle:

By the end o' the day, ah wus laughing like ah hud'nae done in ages, years even.
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defiance

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After some more thought I have come to the conclusion that I am going to stick with something I said not to long ago. I refuse to go past 35 if things don't get better. Life sucks man. There is nothing and I mean NOTHING beautiful about it in my eyes. Everyday is like a contest to see if we can top how bad the previous day was. I hate it so much. I am not religious so I don't believe ill go to hell for committing suicide.
 

grapevine

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Home, bount up emotions. Told my bf about it - that I was skipping out on myself - my life to be with him and that I shouldnt do that.

But I didnt tell him how I feel all funny right now after spending so many days a week with him and tonight is his special night with the guys apparrently where there will be drugs and and booze and doing their heavy metal music.

He got some money from his sister and - is doing that. I just feel jealous in a way because Ive been sacrificng so much of my stuff- time money all of that and responsibilities to be with him when I shouldnt do that. And he is spending his money with them and he has more in common with them - its just hard to unwind - its like - Im gone now - Ive come back home to face my reality - of neglect of myself.
 
Home, bount up emotions. Told my bf about it - that I was skipping out on myself - my life to be with him and that I shouldnt do that.

But I didnt tell him how I feel all funny right now after spending so many days a week with him and tonight is his special night with the guys apparrently where there will be drugs and and booze and doing their heavy metal music.

He got some money from his sister and - is doing that. I just feel jealous in a way because Ive been sacrificng so much of my stuff- time money all of that and responsibilities to be with him when I shouldnt do that. And he is spending his money with them and he has more in common with them - its just hard to unwind - its like - Im gone now - Ive come back home to face my reality - of neglect of myself.


Ive been here.

I understand you want to put him first because you love him but if he's not putting you first then you put him second. Because 1)someone needs to have your best interest at heart and 2) if you make all the sacrifices etc you'll just end up sabotaging yourself and resenting him. (Side note: he will also respect you more for it.)
 
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Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Ready for my life to end

:sad: Sorry to hear, Nanita. But I can relate so... y'know? You're not alone in that regard. I've been feelin' quite cheery, lately.
Though I am currently in Edlinburgh, away from the shitty, wee town I actually stay in for almost the whole of August.
So ye cannae really blame me for feelin' happy. :bigsmile:
 

defiance

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Ready for my life to end

I'm there myself. Looking at the future I don't know how things can improve in such a way where my mental issues will no longer burden me. Therefore carrying on with this hell is pointless for me. Sorry you are there too.
 
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