How are you feeling?

Kiwong said:

Yeah Gough did a whole lot of great things that I consider matters of substance.

Abolished the death penalty, banned conscription, protection of the Great barrier reef, land rights, education for all, universal health care. My brother went into a ballot for Vietnam conscription, I remember thinking that is wrong, fortunately his name wasn't drawn, it worried my parents though.

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Not wearing my glasses and I thought it read "banned constipation"

I can imagine how much it would have worried parents, one of mine is thinking of joining the ADF and all I can think about it is what's happening with IS

Until the council decided to clean it up a few years ago, there used to be some decades old graffiti here that read "smash the draft"

Feeling empty and worthless.
I'm feeling the need to go for a hike and hopefully it rains. I want the cold and wetness to bite at my skin, my lips.. I want the rain to sting me..
I want it to hurt me.

PugofCrydee said:

Feeling empty and worthless.
I'm feeling the need to go for a hike and hopefully it rains. I want the cold and wetness to bite at my skin, my lips.. I want the rain to sting me..
I want it to hurt me.

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Take care of yourself Pug, I hope you choose not to linger in the emotion for too long. You are a great person, far from worthless.

I feel HUNGRY!:crying:

Its going on 1pm here and I haven't eaten a thing.

I woke up not too long ago.

Gotta go, now!

Hope you all have a wonderful day!erfect:

PugofCrydee said:

Feeling empty and worthless.
I'm feeling the need to go for a hike and hopefully it rains. I want the cold and wetness to bite at my skin, my lips.. I want the rain to sting me..
I want it to hurt me.

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Whoa...I know its frowned upon on many forums to double post and it may even get deleted but I don't care, as long people have read it first if they feel it applies to them.

But you gotta pull yourself together, ok? I don't mean like, snap out of it, type of stuff. That never works. Usually so-called "healthy" or "normal" people say garbage like that. They fail to sympathize or even understand what it feels like to have our negative outlooks on life and the things in it.

But Pug, I am here to tell you right now that I do understand how you feel. Pal, I cut myself so bad last week that I ended up in the hospital and after I was treated there I was transferred immediately to the psyche ward. They tried putting me in the nastiest shelter but thankfully my father's love prevailed(they say that love conquers all) and he took me back with him.

However, although I am still having problems that I won't go into detail about right now,(I gotta eat and shower, REEEEAAAAALLLLYYY BAAAAAAD:shyness I continue to just live the best way I know how. It helps me to be thankful for all the good things I have in life and even for things I don't have already(like a dream career).

Its something about feeling pain I think that helps numb our emotional pain on the inside which seems even greater. But this is not the way, I tell you!

Please stay safe, Pug.:thumbup: And keep us posted as well.

kihira said:

Not wearing my glasses and I thought it read "banned constipation"

I can imagine how much it would have worried parents, one of mine is thinking of joining the ADF and all I can think about it is what's happening with IS

Until the council decided to clean it up a few years ago, there used to be some decades old graffiti here that read "smash the draft"

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It is a worrying time, Kihira. I remember my brother had an 'It's time' placard stowed in the garage.

Jet lagged

Lavinialuna said:

Take care of yourself Pug, I hope you choose not to linger in the emotion for too long. You are a great person, far from worthless.

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Thanks Lav, I appreciate it. I'm trying to get my mindset in a better place.

MotherWolff said:

But Pug, I am here to tell you right now that I do understand how you feel. Pal, I cut myself so bad last week that I ended up in the hospital
Its something about feeling pain I think that helps numb our emotional pain on the inside which seems greater

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Thanks mate for your advice. I'm sorry to hear you cut yourself.
I've never been a cutter, but something about walking in the biting cold wind and rain when I'm hurting bad makes me feel... something other than the sorrow inside.
Thanks for your concern though, it lifts my heart to know people care.

Ah don't know, really. By which ah mean ah really know. Eh... :thinking:

Huvin a bad day - which is the opposite o' a guid day. That's like sayin' Glasgow's the opposite of Edinburgh.

Och, ah feel awfy stressed, an' worthless.


Jokin' aside, ah really wish ah hud somebuddy ah could talk tae who didnae judge me, lookin' doon upon me or think less o' me coz o' ma struggles. It's hard fakin' a smile when ye feel like shite. :sad:

Graeme1988 said:

ah really wish ah hud somebuddy ah could talk tae who didnae judge me, lookin' doon upon me or think less o' me coz o' ma struggles. It's hard fakin' a smile when ye feel like shite. :sad:

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I know it's not worth much mate, but if we lived nearby each other I'd offer to meet up over a coffee and have a chat. Sometimes just venting to someone can make us feel better for a short while.

PugofCrydee said:

I know it's not worth much mate, but if we lived nearby each other I'd offer to meet up over a coffee and have a chat. Sometimes just venting to someone can make us feel better for a short while.

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Thanks, nonetheless. :thumbup:

Ah pit way too much pressure oan masel'... Ah think it's because ah cannae bare the thought o' disappointin' folk. Since some folk huv let me doon so much in the past. An' ah cannae say "No" tae people or tell 'em tae "F**k off!" - even when them twa phrase are justified. Coz then ah'd be the guy who everybuddy think is a c**t. Cannae win...

See... coz ah'm no' supposed tae snap an' gan mental at people. Coz ah kind-hearted basturd under aw the hair an' broon skin.

Ah know, ah know ah'm too nice fur ma ain guid. mg:

I feel awful because yesterday Mum and I went to KFC to get lunch and had to pass the supermarket car park and a couple with two little kids got out of their car nearby us and as we were walking past the little girl stared at me for a good ten seconds. It made me feel like a freak. Obviously the shithead's mother doesn't teach her manners about staring being rude. When she turned her back I stuck my tongue out at her but I now wish I had done it when she was looking at me. I just hate that a little kid can reduce me to feeling horrible. It's not the first time a kid has stared at me and it won't be the last by the looks of it. Bl00dy hell.

Foxie913 said:

I feel awful because yesterday Mum and I went to KFC to get lunch and had to pass the supermarket car park and a couple with two little kids got out of their car nearby us and as we were walking past the little girl stared at me for a good ten seconds. It made me feel like a freak. Obviously the shithead's mother doesn't teach her manners about staring being rude. When she turned her back I stuck my tongue out at her but I now wish I had done it when she was looking at me. I just hate that a little kid can reduce me to feeling horrible. It's not the first time a kid has stared at me and it won't be the last by the looks of it. Bl00dy hell.

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Dinnae let it bother ye too much, Foxie. If anythin' it worse when a kid stares at ye then point summit oot tae ye, y'know if ye huv
summit physical wi' ye - like ah huv - there nuthin' better fur yer self-esteem than a verbal kick tae the croutch. mg:

Dinnae lose sleep over it, just keep the stick yer tounge oot bit in mind fur the next time it happens.

Foxie913 said:

I feel awful because yesterday Mum and I went to KFC to get lunch and had to pass the supermarket car park and a couple with two little kids got out of their car nearby us and as we were walking past the little girl stared at me for a good ten seconds. It made me feel like a freak. Obviously the shithead's mother doesn't teach her manners about staring being rude. When she turned her back I stuck my tongue out at her but I now wish I had done it when she was looking at me. I just hate that a little kid can reduce me to feeling horrible. It's not the first time a kid has stared at me and it won't be the last by the looks of it. Bl00dy hell.

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Mate, kids don't understand things, especially when it comes to staring at people. Don't blame the kid.
The best thing you could have done is just ignore them. You poking your tongue out... Well I hate to say it, but who is the kid?

Freaked, man.

Some people do not belong on the internet—like me, for example.

GraybeardGhost said:

Some people do not belong on the internet—like me, for example.

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Ah could say the same aboot masel'.

Foxie913 said:

I feel awful because yesterday Mum and I went to KFC to get lunch and had to pass the supermarket car park and a couple with two little kids got out of their car nearby us and as we were walking past the little girl stared at me for a good ten seconds. It made me feel like a freak. Obviously the shithead's mother doesn't teach her manners about staring being rude. When she turned her back I stuck my tongue out at her but I now wish I had done it when she was looking at me. I just hate that a little kid can reduce me to feeling horrible. It's not the first time a kid has stared at me and it won't be the last by the looks of it. Bl00dy hell.

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You have every right to your feelings because they belong to you, but it might help you feel better about it to remember that children's brains aren't developed and they are incapable of acting as adults because by their nature, they are immature. Besides, maybe they were thinking you looked cool, or that you were beautiful, maybe they liked your shirt. Try not to jump to the worst conclusion.
Also, as a parent, I would like to point out that very often people without kids assume that parents have ultimate control over their children, but the truth of the matter is that kids are free agents. You have to try your best to reign them in and keep them alive until they are old enough to take care of themselves- and it's really hard and they very often embarrass you! There is about 5 million+ things you have to teach them in 18 years and things have to be drilled into their heads over and over. In reality, sometimes you just have to give parents a break.
That being said, I hope you are feeling better about it now. Try not to let it wreck your day, after all, it was just a kid

Bitchy, per usual. >:l