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Starry

Starry

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Hopeless, miserable and depressed. I woke up feeling this way and it just won't shake off. :cry: I've been bursting out crying at intervals throughout the day. :cry: I don't want to eat, though I've managed to force a few bites of a sandwich, and a couple of mints. I wish I wasn't feeling so bad. :cry:
 
Starry

Starry

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Much better than yesterday - I've been talking to my online friend. (From a different forum) She's helped to cheer me up a lot. :) I still don't want to eat though. :? :roll:
 
Starry

Starry

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^^ Not usually. Normally I eat more lol. :roll: But this week's been rather full of anxiety for me and it's caused some gastrointestinal pain. That with feeling depressed has left me unable to eat. :? I'm just not feeling hungry at all. :? Oh well, I could stand to lose some weight.
 
Thelema

Thelema

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Starry said:
^^ Not usually. Normally I eat more lol. :roll: But this week's been rather full of anxiety for me and it's caused some gastrointestinal pain. That with feeling depressed has left me unable to eat. :? I'm just not feeling hungry at all. :? Oh well, I could stand to lose some weight.
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I'm sorry to hear that. When I'm upset I just cant eat. I try and force myself to eat but it just isn't going to happen. The only thing I've found is eating oranges and grapes or soup helps.
 
Starry

Starry

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I'm sorry about that. :( I managed to eat some soup for dinner tonight though. Grapes I might try, I usually adore grapes.
 
Yvonne

Yvonne

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I'm feeling confused and lonely. Feeling really messed up in my head right now..... :roll:
It's a sunny day.. I think I'll just go sit in the sun for a little while.
 
Starry

Starry

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I'm feeling more normal than I have the past couple of days. :) I still don't want to eat though, but I did have one small meal today and a piece of chocolate.

Though I'm worried that my online friend doesn't really want to talk to me anymore. She's been somewhat distant lately. Perhaps it's because she doesn't need me anymore now she's getting better and has real life friends. (She has social phobia too, but she's in therapy) *Sigh* Why do people always end up getting bored with me? :( You'd think after being friends for two years she might actually care. :(
 
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scatmantom

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Well Im currenty sufferning from bad anxiety. Ive got pins and needles in my legs and in my cheeks. Ive got a strange feeling in my chest, feels like pressure pushing outwards in my lungs and ive got a very dry mouth. Im having very negative thoughts as well, even tho im trying to distract my myself as best I can. Problem is Ive got an exam on thursday and ive got to do a university demonstration on monday. I need to be able to concentrate.

I HATE ANXIETY I wish there was a quick fix to get over it. University is hard enough without having anxiety pressure ontop of my studies :x
 
Thelema

Thelema

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Starry said:
I'm sorry about that. :( I managed to eat some soup for dinner tonight though. Grapes I might try, I usually adore grapes.
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I ate a big thing of grapes for dinner last night :wink: I think my mom thinks I'm crazy :D I can also eat chocolate (too much hehehe)
 
Starry

Starry

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Thelema said:
Starry said:
I'm sorry about that. :( I managed to eat some soup for dinner tonight though. Grapes I might try, I usually adore grapes.
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I ate a big thing of grapes for dinner last night :wink: I think my mom thinks I'm crazy :D I can also eat chocolate (too much hehehe)
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Lol, I ate a huge bunch of grapes for a meal once too. Yes, chocolate, that's something I tend to eat too much off. Though I hadn't touched any until today and then I only had one piece.
 
smof

smof

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Kind of pathetic at the moment. It's annoying because I've been feeling kind of okay for the last week or so, especially yesterday even though I got some bad anxiety when I had lectures for the first time in 3 weeks. But today I walked into town and just ended up feeling really aggravated and fed up because of the weather (really windy which I hate, and grey, cold and drizzly) and all the crowds, and little things going wrong.

I got out a self-help book about overcoming anxiety ('fearless' by Wayne Frogatt, it seems really good) and started reading it earlier and felt pretty good because I was thinking "Finally I can start trying practical things to deal with this." But then really suddenly my mood changed, and now I'm feeling pretty fed up and pointless and restless. I want to do some drawing because I promised myself I'd start doing some every day, but I know I'll get really frustrated with it and probably end up crying because that's one of those stupid things that always sets me off.

So in summary, I'm feeling :x
 
Thelema

Thelema

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Starry said:
Thelema said:
Starry said:
I'm sorry about that. :( I managed to eat some soup for dinner tonight though. Grapes I might try, I usually adore grapes.
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I ate a big thing of grapes for dinner last night :wink: I think my mom thinks I'm crazy :D I can also eat chocolate (too much hehehe)
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Lol, I ate a huge bunch of grapes for a meal once too. Yes, chocolate, that's something I tend to eat too much off. Though I hadn't touched any until today and then I only had one piece.
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My mom bought me 3 big bars of chocolate. What was she thinking? I ate them in 2 days and then snuck down and took another bar from the kitchen :twisted: I think I'm going to eat a cantalope now. :D
 
Starry

Starry

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^^^ Lol. :D :lol:

I'm feeling miserable again and I'm in floods of tears as I type. I can't take the nagging feeling of being rejected by my online friend anymore. So I've asked her: "Is it just my social phobia and insecurities making me feel this way, or do you not need or want to talk to me anymore?"

Only my post was much longer than that and contained numerous apologies, and begging for forgiveness if it is my social phobia and insecurities.

*EDIT to include my post to her*

Here's what I said:
Okay, this is really difficult for me to type up, (You have no idea how difficult) and I'm in floods of tears as I type. Not least because I feel I'm being disloyal to you by having these negative feelings...

But, I've trusted you as a friend for a long time now, and I need to know the truth before my negative thoughts destroy what's left of any self-esteem I might have.

Lately I've been feeling that you don't want to talk to me anymore, that you don't need me anymore. I understand that you've been busy with therapy and with your new real-life friends, and I'm glad that you have real life people to talk to and be friends with, really I am. But I can't help this nagging feeling that's eating away at me. I really hope it's just the social phobia making me feel rejected. But I need the truth, whether it's reassurance or throwing me away. I completely understand if it's that you don't want to talk to me anymore. Afterall, why would you want to talk to a pathetic, useless idiot that's hopeless with giving advice and is worthless, online when you have real people around you?

I'm so sorry if I've made you feel bad with this, it's really not my intention. I'd never want to hurt you. I feel horrible enough for feeling this way. If it is just the social phobia and my insecurities causing me to feel this way, then please, please forgive me. I really hope we can continue to be friends. If not, and my thoughts are based in reality then just tell me so I needn't darken your computer screen with my presence again.

I'm sorry. So very sorry.
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Now I've just got to wait for the reply. :cry:

And yes, I know my reaction is stupid and pathetic.
 
Starry

Starry

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Well, I'm feeling better than before now that my online friend hass reassured me that she does still want to talk to me.

Only, now I'm full of guilt that I doubted that. I feel so stupid. I've apologised to her 10 or 11 times already but it really doesn't feel enough. (I'm an over-apologiser.) :?
 
Thelema

Thelema

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Starry said:
Well, I'm feeling better than before now that my online friend hass reassured me that she does still want to talk to me.

Only, now I'm full of guilt that I doubted that. I feel so stupid. I've apologised to her 10 or 11 times already but it really doesn't feel enough. (I'm an over-apologiser.) :?
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Please don't feel bad. Something that helps me when I'm feeling stupid about something I've said (all the freakin time) I just think to myself....If I have no control over something why should I worry about it? It makes no sense to worry about something you can't control. It also makes no sense to worry about something you do control since if you control it you have no reason to worry about it. So it makes no sense to worry :D
 
Starry

Starry

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Thelema said:
Starry said:
Well, I'm feeling better than before now that my online friend hass reassured me that she does still want to talk to me.

Only, now I'm full of guilt that I doubted that. I feel so stupid. I've apologised to her 10 or 11 times already but it really doesn't feel enough. (I'm an over-apologiser.) :?
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Please don't feel bad. Something that helps me when I'm feeling stupid about something I've said (all the freakin time) I just think to myself....If I have no control over something why should I worry about it? It makes no sense to worry about something you can't control. It also makes no sense to worry about something you do control since if you control it you have no reason to worry about it. So it makes no sense to worry :D
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Thanks for that. :) It makes sense. I'll try not to worry about it. It's easier said than done though.
 
Thelema

Thelema

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Starry said:
Thelema said:
Starry said:
Well, I'm feeling better than before now that my online friend hass reassured me that she does still want to talk to me.

Only, now I'm full of guilt that I doubted that. I feel so stupid. I've apologised to her 10 or 11 times already but it really doesn't feel enough. (I'm an over-apologiser.) :?
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Please don't feel bad. Something that helps me when I'm feeling stupid about something I've said (all the freakin time) I just think to myself....If I have no control over something why should I worry about it? It makes no sense to worry about something you can't control. It also makes no sense to worry about something you do control since if you control it you have no reason to worry about it. So it makes no sense to worry :D
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Thanks for that. :) It makes sense. I'll try not to worry about it. It's easier said than done though.
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Yes I know...I would worry about something every day and looking back NONE of the worry was ever worth it. Its like you spend 5 minutes sending a message then you spend 5 hours worrying about it. Then when you get a message back you wonder how the hell you worried about something so stupid for so long. Its vicious cycle.
 
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