How are you feeling?
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this_portrait
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I have a job interview today, but that's not what I'm nervous about. I'm more nervous about apologizing for something I did last night and getting how I feel across in a more calm way.
springk
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Exacctttlyyyy thats how i am feeling. Need someone to talk. Why isnt there a single person suitable enough to talk and can be available when i need one.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Aye, ah can relate tae that! Sadly... :sad:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Why, what's wrong?
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Sorry but... ah can actually relate. Ah know, ah know, that's effin' terrible tae hear, innit? :sad:
* Huv a Scots to English translation dictionary at hand. Am no kiddin', by-the-way... ↓↓↓
F**K! Ah don't know what's wrong wi' me, been in a right f**kin' mood, lately. Don't know why ah said that? Usually, in Scotland, if yer in a right a f**kin' mood, it means ye want tae shag somebody. That's just a wee risque joke fur youse aw tae laugh at. :bigsmile:
Hope ah can get away wi' that...?
Anyways... am still as nerotic, self-loathin' n' f**kin' dour faced as ever! Which isnae really sayin' much, especially when yer Scottish. Apparently am "too nice" - still...?! - which... does really dae me any favours. Ah mean, fair enough if ye want tae think that. Though, we might disagree on that... seriously!
Ah wish ah could be a bit mair like ma older sister - the middle child as she's also known - y'know, just f**kin' speak yer mind n' no gee a f**k what folk are gonnae think o' ye! Oh! An' it would be nice - speakin' fur masel' here - tae actually express an opinion withoot some f**ker or family member smurkin' n' laughin'. Just once! :kickingmyself: Ah guess ye could say am conflicted tae say the least!
Awright! Enough o' ma post psychotic twats disorder - or ma long, boring incoherent, "F**kin' hell! Does he really talk like that?!"
rants. F**kety-Bye!
vj288
not actually Fiona Apple
Lately I've been fluctuating between "hey, yeah, yeah everything is good. things are going good and keep being good. Good things are ahead. Good, good, goody goodness good good....yeah, good" and "things have never been ok and they are only going to get worse, nothing is going to turn out ok, there's so much that won't work out and even more things I can't change. The purpose of living is beyond my devices at the moment, I don't know why to bother to go on." When I am not feeling one of these, I seem to find myself distracted doing things that occupy my mind.
Shrimp
Member
Videogames are sucking up all of my time lately, have been going easy on myself in the gym stopping early so I can play more videogames.
I need to start hitting the gym harder and more often again.
Beside that I feel allright, trying not to get depressed and love myself for who I am.
I might not have any friends but atleast I got my dog to keep me company 24/7.
I need to start hitting the gym harder and more often again.
Beside that I feel allright, trying not to get depressed and love myself for who I am.
I might not have any friends but atleast I got my dog to keep me company 24/7.
For some, yes. In my experience, looking back on things I did it was like I was mad at the situation and taking it out on the world. I thought there was something wrong with me for my father not to want anything to do with me. I grew up and learned better after meeting him even though we don't speak anymore.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Sorry tae hear that, pal. Eh... am no really sure ah can say anythin' tae help, tae be honest. :
: :idontknow: Ah can kinda relate, though.
neardeath
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Sorry tae hear that, pal. Eh... am no really sure ah can say anythin' tae help, tae be honest. :
Thanks, Graeme. A friend without power stopped over to blow-dry her hair (weird!) but I got a shoulder to cry on for a few minutes.
Phoenixx
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Feeling burnt out already and it's not even noon. It's mostly because I didn't sleep well last night. My cat kept me up and so did the dog. They just didn't want to go to bed. >_< Today I have a whole crapload of History notes to read. I'm already a quarter of the way through them, but I still have over 130 slides to go. I was hoping to get at least half of the questions done today too. I just need to keep on plowing through and see how far I get until I really can't stand it anymore. Thank god I only have 2 weeks of this left. I'm getting tired of reading about Communism China.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
No great, but then, being there's nothin' great aboot mental illness. (Sigh!)
Ah just feel like ... naebody gives a f**k anymair! Ach! It's doesnae matter... ah've been sayin' that quite alot, lately. But then everytime ah try n' be serious or a wee bit assertive am just laughed at. The way ah look by which ah mean the fact ah rarely smile, the way ah talk - it's aw just one big hysterical laugh! Nae f**kin' wonder ah keep tae masel'! Tae be honest, it's probably fur the best. What little confidence ah huv in masel' is usually undermind since am usually wrong aboot half the stuff ah say. Or seem tae be... :kickingmyself: Well, it more of an inferiority complex than confidence.
Ah've actually be thinkin' - which fur me is f**kin' rare nowadays - aboot how things huv turn oot in ma life, retrospectively up tae this point. An' ah realised something - ah don't know if this is common wi' other folk who huv overprotective parents? But... they never really allow ye tae grow up, do they? Properly ah mean. Speakin' fur masel', of course. But then that's more interestin' than insightful.
Ah mean, ah might look mature (older than ma age n' aw that shite), but ah sure as f**k dinnae feel it!
Sorry, just huvin' a wee mental breakdoon coupled with a rant!mg:
Ah just feel like ... naebody gives a f**k anymair! Ach! It's doesnae matter... ah've been sayin' that quite alot, lately. But then everytime ah try n' be serious or a wee bit assertive am just laughed at. The way ah look by which ah mean the fact ah rarely smile, the way ah talk - it's aw just one big hysterical laugh! Nae f**kin' wonder ah keep tae masel'! Tae be honest, it's probably fur the best. What little confidence ah huv in masel' is usually undermind since am usually wrong aboot half the stuff ah say. Or seem tae be... :kickingmyself: Well, it more of an inferiority complex than confidence.
Ah've actually be thinkin' - which fur me is f**kin' rare nowadays - aboot how things huv turn oot in ma life, retrospectively up tae this point. An' ah realised something - ah don't know if this is common wi' other folk who huv overprotective parents? But... they never really allow ye tae grow up, do they? Properly ah mean. Speakin' fur masel', of course. But then that's more interestin' than insightful.
Ah mean, ah might look mature (older than ma age n' aw that shite), but ah sure as f**k dinnae feel it!
Sorry, just huvin' a wee mental breakdoon coupled with a rant!
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this_portrait
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I feel hurt, abandoned, and all alone in this cruel dark world.
I feel conflicted. I get the impression my boss was lazy because he didn't even bother to read emails at all and just wrote random stuff. Plus sometimes he scares me with really awkward questions that no sane, sober person would ask. I actually wanted to quit today but then he had to praise me for my work, so I feel kind of bad. I was actually very excited (and relieved) that we had a new applicant who could potentially replace me but then my boss said she can be my assistant. I'm screwed?!?
To clarify, I don't want to quit the organization entirely. I actually want another position with less responsibiities (and less contact with people). I guess I'm still trying to find my niche.
To clarify, I don't want to quit the organization entirely. I actually want another position with less responsibiities (and less contact with people). I guess I'm still trying to find my niche.
planemo
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I'm not really sure how to feel anymore. Should i be content, or upset? Is my indifference a good or a bad thing? There's so much pain and misery in the world, and yet I can't solve my own problems. Is there or isn't there a point to any of this? I just don't know...