How are you feeling?

Daniel089 · Jun 11, 2012

I'm optimistic now. Even though I'm a social failure (I don't have friends) I realized I got an advantage against others. I can 100% choose the people I wanna be with. It's up to me and only me.
I can't imagine right now if I had 1000 friends like some of my hi school classmates do. I wouldn't have free time at all. But I do have lots of it now.
Well you know what Eric Idle said: "Always look on the bright side of life."
I think I should do that from now on.

Daniel089 · Jun 11, 2012

Lea said:
Like ****, regulary. And I will always feel this way, till the miserable end of my ****ty life. Only shoutings, shoutings, aggresivity, that´s my daily bread. I don´t even know who I am anymore. I can´t see any ways leading anywhere, don´t know what I want, where to go. I will never be able to change anything on this.

I'm sorry Lea, I hope things will change for you, but if you turn agressive on others that won't leave anywhere, you have to do the opposite for at least once try being kind without being a doormat or something. Besides I often say I'll never have friends but I don't really mean it. We have to start changing step by step.

Graeme1988 · Jun 11, 2012

Bored, lazy, and apathetic.

Agent_Violet · Jun 11, 2012

Sad that i got told to take my constant positivity elsewhere. Sad that i got told to stop trying to help bc I'm not helpful.

Graeme1988 · Jun 11, 2012

Agent_Violet said:
Sad that i got told to take my constant positivity elsewhere. Sad that i got told to stop trying to help bc I'm not helpful.

Sorry to hear that, Violet.

Phoenixx · Jun 11, 2012

lonely_drummer said:
Hopefully some pool time can bring your mood back up, have fun!

Srijita52 said:
I'm sorry Phoenixx, I hope you feel better.

^ Thanks guys.

It did make me feel better. :

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MikeyC · Jun 11, 2012

Graeme1988 said:
Bored, lazy, and apathetic.

I'm sorry, Graeme. Bad feelings.

Agent_Violet said:
Sad that i got told to take my constant positivity elsewhere. Sad that i got told to stop trying to help bc I'm not helpful.

That's weird. I enjoy your positivity. Why would someone say that?

EscapeArtist · Jun 11, 2012

Agent_Violet said:
Sad that i got told to take my constant positivity elsewhere. Sad that i got told to stop trying to help bc I'm not helpful.

that's messed up who would say that?

EscapeArtist · Jun 11, 2012

i feel very ashamed of myself for not having the motivation to get a job and help out my family or be independent. also lately i have had so little energy/motivation that just getting out of bed is so difficult, going out of the house seems impossible! all i have been doing is just sitting in bed and use the compo, eating food that i'm not paying for, and feeling awfully ashamed about it... I hope it's just kratom withdrawal, i dont remember being this de-motivated, tired, anxious.

DeadmanWalking · Jun 11, 2012

EscapeArtist said:
i feel very ashamed of myself for not having the motivation to get a job and help out my family or be independent. also lately i have had so little energy/motivation that just getting out of bed is so difficult, going out of the house seems impossible! all i have been doing is just sitting in bed and use the compo, eating food that i'm not paying for, and feeling awfully ashamed about it... I hope it's just kratom withdrawal, i dont remember being this de-motivated, tired, anxious.

Sounds similar to me Escape:

:. Just force yourself to; it helps to have your family help you with stuff like this. Your motivation will come again

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lilmutegirl · Jun 11, 2012

Pretty good. Second class meeting down, 11 to go!

I didn't talk in class this time (I think I was the only one). There are 15 people in the class, and 3 were absent today, so it was probably pretty obvious that I was silent. What I really hate is that I knew the answer to something and still didn't say it. I hate that about me. It's one thing if I'm not sure, but if I'm almost positive it's correct, why not just speak up??:

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Phoenixx · Jun 11, 2012

lilmutegirl said:
What I really hate is that I knew the answer to something and still didn't say it. I hate that about me. It's one thing if I'm not sure, but if I'm almost positive it's correct, why not just speak up??::

^ I also do this a lot. Speaking out loud in class terrifies me. Not only that, but even when I do know, or think I know, the answer to something my confidence is so low I automatically second guess myself and I'm afraid I might make a mistake, so I still don't speak at all.

Try not to kick yourself for it though. As long as you know what you need to, you're good.
Good luck with the rest of your classes!

MikeyC · Jun 11, 2012

lilmutegirl said:
What I really hate is that I knew the answer to something and still didn't say it. I hate that about me. It's one thing if I'm not sure, but if I'm almost positive it's correct, why not just speak up??::

Phoenixx said:
^ I also do this a lot. Speaking out loud in class terrifies me. Not only that, but even when I do know, or think I know, the answer to something my confidence is so low I automatically second guess myself and I'm afraid I might make a mistake, so I still don't speak at all.

I did the same thing when I was in high school. Sometimes I knew the answer but I wouldn't shout out. I even do it know.

WeirdyMcGee · Jun 11, 2012

EscapeArtist said:
that's messed up who would say that?

a miserable person.

Invisibleman · Jun 11, 2012

I just got back from an end of the year graduation party thing that an acquaintance dragged me to. It was incredibly awkward, we were given our yearbooks and everybody does the whole going around and signing your signature with a message of friendship and stuff. I would look over and see other people with literally 10 pages plus of peoples messages and signatures, but of course the entire night not a single person signed mine:

: *sigh*

KiaKaha · Jun 11, 2012

Invisibleman said:
I just got back from an end of the year graduation party thing that an acquaintance dragged me to. It was incredibly awkward, we were given our yearbooks and everybody does the whole going around and signing your signature with a message of friendship and stuff. I would look over and see other people with literally 10 pages plus of peoples messages and signatures, but of course the entire night not a single person signed mine:: *sigh*

Aw man - that would sting. I would feel upset if that happened to me too.

I would of signed yours if I was there.

Arthur_Dent · Jun 11, 2012

vj288 · Jun 11, 2012

Extra messed up. More a feeling probably than anything I just hate my brain sometimes, I just wish it worked the way it was supposed to.

Srijita52 · Jun 11, 2012

vj288 said:
Extra messed up. More a feeling probably than anything I just hate my brain sometimes, I just wish it worked the way it was supposed to.

I know the feeling, I hope you feel better soon.

Invisibleman said:
I just got back from an end of the year graduation party thing that an acquaintance dragged me to. It was incredibly awkward, we were given our yearbooks and everybody does the whole going around and signing your signature with a message of friendship and stuff. I would look over and see other people with literally 10 pages plus of peoples messages and signatures, but of course the entire night not a single person signed mine:: *sigh*

I'm sorry, I would've signed yours too.

Agent_Violet said:
Sad that i got told to take my constant positivity elsewhere. Sad that i got told to stop trying to help bc I'm not helpful.

I find you positivity very helpful.

EscapeArtist said:
i feel very ashamed of myself for not having the motivation to get a job and help out my family or be independent. also lately i have had so little energy/motivation that just getting out of bed is so difficult, going out of the house seems impossible! all i have been doing is just sitting in bed and use the compo, eating food that i'm not paying for, and feeling awfully ashamed about it... I hope it's just kratom withdrawal, i dont remember being this de-motivated, tired, anxious.

I can relate Escape, I agree with Deadman though, you need to push yourself a bit. Hopefully your motivation comes back.

lilmutegirl said:
Pretty good. Second class meeting down, 11 to go! I didn't talk in class this time (I think I was the only one). There are 15 people in the class, and 3 were absent today, so it was probably pretty obvious that I was silent. What I really hate is that I knew the answer to something and still didn't say it. I hate that about me. It's one thing if I'm not sure, but if I'm almost positive it's correct, why not just speak up??::

I do this a lot too, maybe its part of my anxiety and part of me trying to be a perfectionist. Don't be too hard on yourself though.

kyle · Jun 11, 2012

EscapeArtist said:
i feel very ashamed of myself for not having the motivation to get a job and help out my family or be independent. also lately i have had so little energy/motivation that just getting out of bed is so difficult, going out of the house seems impossible! all i have been doing is just sitting in bed and use the compo, eating food that i'm not paying for, and feeling awfully ashamed about it... I hope it's just kratom withdrawal, i dont remember being this de-motivated, tired, anxious.

You should move to Alberta.

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