How are you feeling?

psych said:

You're f'n silly!

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Yeah, pretty much.

Not too well. My OCD (along with the hypochondria) and panic attacks seem to be getting worse. I have become obsessed and paranoid about somehow getting sick (particularly the stomach bug, because that terrifies me). I have been constantly washing and sanitizing my hands, as well as using Lysol wipes on everything. I've been checking my temperature frequently, too. I don't know what to do. I feel lost and hopeless and people are just judging, not helping. My mum has been aware of my mental/emotional issues since I was a young child. She has seen the worst of it. Sometimes she's supportive, sometimes she's not. When I told her that my brain has been coming up with these new fears and obsessions, she just rolled her eyes and became annoyed. Thanks for the f*cking support, mother. I'll remember that.

LadyWench said:

Not too well. My OCD (along with the hypochondria) and panic attacks seem to be getting worse. I have become obsessed and paranoid about somehow getting sick (particularly the stomach bug, because that terrifies me). I have been constantly washing and sanitizing my hands, as well as using Lysol wipes on everything. I've been checking my temperature frequently, too. I don't know what to do. I feel lost and hopeless and people are just judging, not helping. My mum has been aware of my mental/emotional issues since I was a young child. She has seen the worst of it. Sometimes she's supportive, sometimes she's not. When I told her that my brain has been coming up with these new fears and obsessions, she just rolled her eyes and became annoyed. Thanks for the f*cking support, mother. I'll remember that.

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I'm sorry...

Srijita52 said:

What's wrong?

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I am 23 and live with my parents. My dad has brain cancer and my mom is the primary caretaker. My dad is very disabled now so things are stressful for my mom who thinks she can just "do it all" even when I try to help. I just stay at home or go to the few places I am comfortable most of the time. I graduated from college last year with no clear goal in mind. I took the LSAT and bombed it, not that I have the confidence to go through the application process. I am too scared to get a job because I fear being judged all the time. Just putting in applications makes my anxiety skyrocket- still haven't gotten a callback from the few places I tried.

Before his cancer diagnosis last year, my dad was a doctor so I don't "have to" work. I have imagined all the nasty things people think about me- never held a job (a couple part timers) and no social life. I had all the opportunities in the world handed to me and I f***ed it up.

I feel unemployable at this point. There is nothing here, it is a dead end town. Maybe I will suck it up and get a minimum wage job, no matter the anxiety it will cause with people interaction and the judgment for how I got myself into this situation.

I feel and sound like such a loser... I am restarting counseling this week.

Srijita52 said:

I'm sorry...

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Thanks.

alak said:

I am 23 and live with my parents. My dad has brain cancer and my mom is the primary caretaker. My dad is very disabled now so things are stressful for my mom who thinks she can just "do it all" even when I try to help. I just stay at home or go to the few places I am comfortable most of the time. I graduated from college last year with no clear goal in mind. I took the LSAT and bombed it, not that I have the confidence to go through the application process. I am too scared to get a job because I fear being judged all the time. Just putting in applications makes my anxiety skyrocket- still haven't gotten a callback from the few places I tried.

Before his cancer diagnosis last year, my dad was a doctor so I don't "have to" work. I have imagined all the nasty things people think about me- never held a job (a couple part timers) and no social life. I had all the opportunities in the world handed to me and I f***ed it up.

I feel unemployable at this point. There is nothing here, it is a dead end town. Maybe I will suck it up and get a minimum wage job, no matter the anxiety it will cause with people interaction and the judgment for how I got myself into this situation.

I feel and sound like such a loser... I am restarting counseling this week.

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I'm sorry you're going through all this and also about your dad.
I wish I had something better to say but I hope you do get a job. Hang in there.

warm and fuzzy inside, probably just saved a fluffy little creatures life. somehow it got its wing caught between 2 wires outside my house and i got a ladder and pulled the wires apart so it could get out and it glided down to a bush and took a breather for a few and then it flew off.

by the way, the little fluffy creature, was a bat!

N0D said:

warm and fuzzy inside, probably just saved a fluffy little creatures life. somehow it got its wing caught between 2 wires outside my house and i got a ladder and pulled the wires apart so it could get out and it glided down to a bush and took a breather for a few and then it flew off.

by the way, the little fluffy creature, was a bat!

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Ohh I'm glad you saved it.

Srijita52 said:

I'm sorry you're going through all this and also about your dad.
I wish I had something better to say but I hope you do get a job. Hang in there.

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Thank you... I need to stop thinking so much :/ but that stuff just races through my mind on a loop.

alak said:

Thank you... I need to stop thinking so much :/ but that stuff just races through my mind on a loop.

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I understand, its hard not to overthink sometimes.

Srijita52 said:

I understand, its hard not to overthink sometimes.

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Yeah, obsessing is a bad trait of mine.

baaaaaaaaad

Srijita52 said:

What's wrong?

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I'm just not feeling well. Everyday seems to get worse and worse, and has been like this for months. I shouldn't bother anymore and just accept it, but it's not easy.

Flustered. I may have 'over-extroverted' myself today.

uncomfortable for the 3rd day in a row.
in pain, fatigued and just uneasy...

MrJones said:

I'm just not feeling well. Everyday seems to get worse and worse, and has been like this for months. I shouldn't bother anymore and just accept it, but it's not easy.

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Why is it getting worse? ::

JCVA said:

Flustered. I may have 'over-extroverted' myself today.

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Oh, I know that feeling all too well.

WeirdyMcGee said:

uncomfortable for the 3rd day in a row.
in pain, fatigued and just uneasy...

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Sorry to hear, Weirdy. *hands her creams and ointments for what ails her*

Merel said:

I feel sick, tired, emotional, and pushed around. I couldn't fall asleep until 5:00am last night. I wish I could unread these things I have taken in. My father took me out this afternoon on a local lake and I just wasn't feeling in the mood. He also had his truck smashed in while we were gone and was screaming with anger when we came back and it was unbearable. I suspect my brother has anorexia (or even depression), he's never around to talk to, and it's as if I don't know him anymore. He used to be my best friend. I have nobody to talk to in person. A lot of people on here at this point of my life know me better than my parents do.

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Wow, I'm really sorry, Merel. :: I hope you can chat to your brother about anything that's bothering him (and you). Why do you feel "pushed around," though?

I know it's of little consolation but you're more than welcome to chat to me whenever you need to.

Merel said:

I feel sick, tired, emotional, and pushed around. I couldn't fall asleep until 5:00am last night. I wish I could unread these things I have taken in. My father took me out this afternoon on a local lake and I just wasn't feeling in the mood. He also had his truck smashed in while we were gone and was screaming with anger when we came back and it was unbearable. I suspect my brother has anorexia (or even depression), he's never around to talk to, and it's as if I don't know him anymore. He used to be my best friend. I have nobody to talk to in person. A lot of people on here at this point of my life know me better than my parents do.

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I hope you can help your brother out Merel, maybe one day you will be able to talk to him. Get well.

Merel said:

I feel sick, tired, emotional, and pushed around. I couldn't fall asleep until 5:00am last night. I wish I could unread these things I have taken in. My father took me out this afternoon on a local lake and I just wasn't feeling in the mood. He also had his truck smashed in while we were gone and was screaming with anger when we came back and it was unbearable. I suspect my brother has anorexia (or even depression), he's never around to talk to, and it's as if I don't know him anymore. He used to be my best friend.

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^ Really sorry to hear, Merel. :: I hope you're able to reach out to your brother sometime soon. In the meantime, take care. Get well soon.

I have nobody to talk to in person. A lot of people on here at this point of my life know me better than my parents do.

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^ I understand. A lot of people here know me (or at least my issues) much more than my whole family does.

Apparently I'm too sensitive for this ****ing world. People treat me like I'm inferior to them, it's like they can sense weakness a mile away and take advantage of it as soon as they pick up on it.

Went home from work crying after a coworker tried to order me around and shook his head at me when I didn't finish mopping the floor; I had already stayed an extra half an hour past the time I was supposed to leave, and he was still on his shift! I'm only supposed to be working part-time and as it is I'm doing 40 hours! (I have to speak to my managers about that). I told him I had to leave and he had an attitude and said "Bye" dismissively. He keeps treating me this way, this isn't the first time. But I'm too scared to be assertive. I really really want to be but I get sooooo nervous.

I hate people. The majority of them are *******s. They laugh at you when you cry and mock you when you feel sad, or when you talk about why you are sad. But when you stand up for yourself they mock you then, too.

I am sure I am overreacting, but that is because I am extra sensitive to these things to begin with. I ****ing hate it! I don't WANT to be. But I have been since I was about 5 years old. It's never gotten better as far as assertiveness goes, no matter how many times I have had to confront someone, the fear is the same.

I was so upset I almost thew up in the bathroom, I was just shaking with anger. I don't know what to do.

Sorry for the pity party, I had to dump it here, I just feel horrible.

Hopefully I'll feel better after I cry it all out...