HOCD Event

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Passing By

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Hi folks,

I need to get responses - I've just had an awful brutal past 2 hour panic attack and OCD event. Here is a little background on me.

23 years old, straight, love my girlfriend, both psychiatrist and doctor declared me with severe ocd. on 225mg of effexor a day, and now just starting a herbal program that has been proven to permanently remove ocd - takes 1-3 years of daily dosing though.

I have had OCD since I was 5. To say the thoughts are a habit is an understatement.


I just saw an ad on the internet for getting "ripped" abs etc... and my HOCD fear kicked in. I started staring at the picture for 20 minutes with the purpose of NOT getting aroused, in order to prove I'm not a flamer. Well my heart was beating at 123123123 beats a minute.

I didn't get a full erection so I figured I would try even harder. I started picturing the person in the picture to masturbate and I got scared, felt a groinal response, and somehow got an erection. I don't know why! Perhaps my brain was imagining how it feels since I have masturbated in my lifetime too. It was an awful experience.

So i've spent the last 2 hours looking and comparing pictures of bikinis and women to guys in underwear or something with the intent of getting an erection on the bikini pictures and losing that erection on the guy picture.

It's disgusting. I want no part of that. I'm just looking for comments or similar events.. something! I want it to go away. :(
 

agirl

Member
Don't freak out, Don't try to get rid of your thoughts.

Remember, the more you want your OCD thoughts to go away the stonger they will become. Say to yourself:

I am not afraid of these thoughts because they are not real. They are only a misfiring signal in my brain. I don't care if these thoughts stay or go, because they have no impact on me either way.

When you say this try to breathe calmly and when you breathe inhail on 3 and exhale 6.

So your breath out is twice as long as your breath in. This is an instant calming technique.
 

LockieKermit

Well-known member
I used to have the same thing, I was so scared of becoming gay, what made it worse was the fact that I got slight erections as you say. But once I got over the fear of being gay, they actually went away..

To the point is, it will go if you dont worry..just chill dude...your not gay..
 
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