help...I really need a piece of advice...

I've been bullied for 3 years now by two classmates. Not physically, just mentally.To be honest, I'd prefer they have bullied me physically instead of hurting me this way ( i mean gossip, name calling and even threatening me with being beaten up). It was a torture all this period. I couldn't concentrate on anything, I was almost always scared, I was feeling in danger...I don't know why these girls have chosen me to torture.I can say I was always a very good student, but never that kind of nerd. I've always tried to get on well with everybody, I was rather quiet, but always open-minded and eager to talk to anyone.Whenever they came to my desk asking for help (regarding homework), I've never refuse them.When teacher announced my good result in a school competiton, these girls started laughing at me, gossiping as loud as I can hear them.They've tried not to say my name, so that I couldn't stand up for myself. But all my classmates were aware of what was going on and said nothing, they just came to me and encouraged me to go on. I was very dissapointed and didn't know what to do. That time I was preparing myself for another contest at school so I thought it could be a good idea to ask my theacher ( who was closer to me)for a piece of advice. I felt I wouldn't be able to concentrate on the competition if having this probleme on my mind. But this idea proved to be a very bad one as the theacher called these girls and talked to them. As a result, things went worse. These girls were very angry on me and starting yelling and even threatening me. since then I lived every day fearing that they could beat me up any moment. They continued of course gossiping and saying bad things about me , laughing at me. My life really changed since then. I became isolated, fearfull, even more shy than I was and couldn't concentrate on anything.My holidays were all a torture as I knew school would start and I would be again in danger. I could never relax. I couldn't eat almost anything, I started losing weight, I couldn't enjoy a moment with my friends and my boyfriend (this is the reason we broke up I guess). I 've thought of killing myself but I didn't have the guts to do it.My teacher was very angry about my results in contests as they weren't as good as at first (before they started bullying me).little by little I developed anxiety and panic attacks. Although I take my pills every single day (prozac and Spitomin) I'm suffering even now from panic attacks . Even now when I write this post I'm feeling my hands quivering and my heart beating too fast. I've talked, of course to my parents and we've decided that I should move on to another school (even if it's tha last year of highschool). Now I'm scared not only about my past but also about my future, my new classmates. I feel I can't pass through all these things again.Now, when I think about these girls I feel I hate them but I still fear them also. I can't think of being able to concentrate on my previous activities.I just don't know what to do with my life. Sorry for having written so much.

So the meds don't work? Have you tried therapy at all? Maybe this is something that you could look into. It might be helpful.

I know that this is easier said than done, but maybe you ought to try and stick up for yourself? Maybe they continue treating you this way because you don't defend yourself.

Next time they start acting up, get into their faces. It might feel good to get things off your chest by screaming at them. Ask them why they treat you the way they do considering that you have never done them any wrong. Remind them that you've been nothing but helpful to them. Sometimes all you need to feel better is to let it all out.

Females rarely attack one another physically so you probably shouldn't worry about any physical violence. If they do threaten to do you bodily harm then tell them to go ahead and try. Chances are that if they really were going to attack you, they would have done it already instead of just talking. Your teacher's intervention obviously didn't do any good, and no one else is sticking up for you. That's why you should try to muster up all the courage you can and go off on them. The crazier, the better.

I used to get bullied when I was in school, and I wish I could go back and do exactly as I've described above. I might even club a bitch or two...if I could only go back in time.