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TodayAlive

TodayAlive

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This was about a month ago and I was at my register at work.

As I was working, I saw some kid was going through the register aisle behind me (you know, the opposite way you go through a register aisle).

I felt so compelled to touch them. Again, I became nervous and sick to my stomach. I never felt that way before.

I begin to drift towards them (with my rear end) as they moved perpendicular to me, like I was going to touch them.

I wasn't looking behind me, but I was so scared I was going to touch them.

Again, I didn't touch them, but I felt like I was trying to.

I didn't want to touch them, but I've also been struggling with the thought that I was really trying to touch them. I've also been struggling to tell myself that the reason I was moving towards them was because it was a nervous compulsion, but I keep relapsing.

I recently thought that since I really thought and felt like I was going to touch, then I must have been trying to. It's starting to freak me out.

I know this sounds weird and completely stupid, but can someone help?
 
durda_dan

durda_dan

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a nervous tick, your brain is confused with OCD, and it's telling you to touch something.
i get that sometimes, the nervous tick ends usually in a few seconds, once you gget control of yourself again right?
it's creepy, but remember ultimately you are in control, not your mind.
 
getbornagain

getbornagain

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You better let this go. I can already see what this will lead to.... very common amongst OCDers. Let it go. It's nothing.
 
Morgan01

Morgan01

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durda_dan said:
a nervous tick, your brain is confused with OCD, and it's telling you to touch something.
i get that sometimes, the nervous tick ends usually in a few seconds, once you gget control of yourself again right?
it's creepy, but remember ultimately you are in control, not your mind.
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but I thought our minds are what controls us.. this always confuses me and makes me upset thinking my brain is telling my body to do things.. the brain is in control right.. i just don't understand.. it's very conflicting
 
durda_dan

durda_dan

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your brain can tell you to do something before we realise it, but once we are in control again after split seconds, we stop ourselfs
 
getbornagain

getbornagain

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Morgan01 said:
what will it lead to?!
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POCD. One of the worst obsessions. Hopefully buddy realizes it was just a stupid intrusive thought that everybody gets once in a while, and the majority of the population is able to shake it off and live life. If he doesn't recongize how insignificant this moment in his life actually is, he will head down a terrible path.
 
durda_dan

durda_dan

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whats Pocd? Pedophile OCD? i think he meant anyone in general, like when you are say walking by a wall maybe you touch a wall, or a railing down the stairs. this is just you want to touch something, and your mind tells ylu anybody within your reach would be a good thing to touch. not just children .... i think
 
getbornagain

getbornagain

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Hahaha lets hope. That to me just seems like the onset of the ever-popular POCD.

Either way, buddy needs to move past this. It's nothing he can continue living life.
 
TodayAlive

TodayAlive

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Thanks for the replies. I guess I really should let this go and move on. No sense in fighting over something I didn't do. I was just freaked out that I thought I was trying. I think I'm moving past that as well.

I don't think I was trying.
 
Morgan01

Morgan01

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durda_dan said:
whats Pocd? Pedophile OCD? i think he meant anyone in general, like when you are say walking by a wall maybe you touch a wall, or a railing down the stairs. this is just you want to touch something, and your mind tells ylu anybody within your reach would be a good thing to touch. not just children .... i think
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lmao.. POCD doesn't mean pediphile ocd silly. it's a type of ocd.. the worst kind when you can't let go.. I think but I'm not sure that it means PURE OCD.

I think I am leading down this path... AHHHH help me.. I am getting worse and worse every day it seems..
 
Morgan01

Morgan01

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durda_dan said:
your brain can tell you to do something before we realise it, but once we are in control again after split seconds, we stop ourselfs
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yeah so... what if it tells us to do it.. and before we realize it is too late.. we have done it.. our brain thought it for too long.. How can I overpower the brain.. it's all in the brain right.. it's all just this huge conflict going on in my brain..

"oh maybe I should do this" "gasp I could never do this" "well what if you do" "but I don't want to do it" "then why are you thinking it" "I don't know" "excactly" "oh ****..what if I do it" "you might as well" "I can't! I wuldn't!" "you might" "nooo" "well you have been thinking about it for this long why don't you just do it" "maybe I should just try it" "maybe" "no I don't want to that's crazy" "well stop thinking about it then" "ahhhhh"

how can you stop the brain.. maybe I have two brains?
 
getbornagain

getbornagain

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Morgan01 said:
lmao.. POCD doesn't mean pediphile ocd silly. it's a type of ocd.. the worst kind when you can't let go.. I think but I'm not sure that it means PURE OCD.

I think I am leading down this path... AHHHH help me.. I am getting worse and worse every day it seems..
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I was referring to pedophile OCD. I've always recognized POCD as pedophile OCD and I have Pure-O. I just called it Pure O.
 
durda_dan

durda_dan

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i am pretty sure i have Pure O, not many compulsions, i more have Compulsion ticks. Maybe once a month i clean like a mad man. for innstance.
But most of the time ym head is saying KILL KILL KILL. and i am saying **** off **** off **** off.
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POCD is this.

'that little girl has cute hair. OMG SHE HAS CUTE HAIR, DID i look at her hair/ do i think little girls are cute?
what if i sleep with a child
AHHHHHHH, i just thought of sleeping with a child, OMG i'm a Pedophile OMG OMG OMG '

i'm glad i don't have them i would be terrified im a kindergarten that would be ..... i would probably kill myself ha ha kidding
 
getbornagain

getbornagain

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You have pedophile OCD and your avatar is a picture of a little girl? lmfao... not laughing at your struggle but I find that rather funny. Hope you pull through and don't believe the lies.

Just for clarification pedophile OCD or (POCD as some know it) falls within the Pure-O category. Purely obsessional OCD has obsessions without any visual compulsions. You would probably relieve the anxiety caused by a POCD spike by with some sort of mental ritual as opposed to washing your hands or checking doorlocks etc etc.

That's all for now! Have fun!!
 
Morgan01

Morgan01

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getbornagain said:
You have pedophile OCD and your avatar is a picture of a little girl? lmfao... not laughing at your struggle but I find that rather funny. Hope you pull through and don't believe the lies.

Just for clarification pedophile OCD or (POCD as some know it) falls within the Pure-O category. Purely obsessional OCD has obsessions without any visual compulsions. You would probably relieve the anxiety caused by a POCD spike by with some sort of mental ritual as opposed to washing your hands or checking doorlocks etc etc.

That's all for now! Have fun!!
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I don't know I just got confused again... pocd means pediphile ocd as in thats what it really means because you obsess constantly about being a pediphile or pocd is pediphile ocd because you just call it that as a joke because you obsess about things a lot like being a pediphile... or because you obsess about things to the point of being a pediphile....?
I don't know I don't really know what it is I have a lot of obsessions more than compulsions I get really bad with it and have a hard time really control it and do have mental rituals many mental rituals.
But I'm not a pediphile I don't have obsessions only about that.. or were you saying pediphile ocd is a type of pure ocd ..?
I've never touched anyone and that's my daughter.

I don't really know much about different kinds of OCD and such I'm new to it all.
 
durda_dan

durda_dan

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it's one thought, that graduates in itself to make you think you are a pedofile and that you like children.
there is also HOCD (homosexual where in the person thinks they might be Homosexual)
i'm new to it too, there might be more, but i'm not sure.
 
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