First time opening up...Finally

Prissy

Member
I have just diagnosed myself with Social Phobia and I know my issue is not extreme shyness. I have read alot of your posts and I can so relate to what you are saying. Yesterday I thought I was the only person in the world who carried these feelings of fear and today I have made friends with people's stories that let me know I am not alone.
I am 26 yrs old and I live in the US. I have kids and I am an average girl I guess. I really dont have a best friend but I do have very few people I can talk to and confide in but no one I can call a true friend. Only one person knows about my symptoms but with very limited info. I am a pretty positive and religous person or at least I like to be even when I dont feel like it. Yes, I definitely believe there is hope for all of us here. The power of the mind is amazing and we can become better mentally and emotionally, but first, we have to have hope. I have so much hope that I am excited to start to work my way through this. I am sorry if this may offend anyone who has been suffering for a long time but no matter how long we have suffered we should never give up. Never.
I have had this phobia since I was a little girl I am now realizing and I used to call it shyness and it has significantly progressed. I realize that this is something more than shyness. My fear has taken me into lonely roads where I am no longer apart of a group...I am isolated and misunderstood. I feel like I have to be fake sometimes to fit in with people. I have turned down alot of invitations for events that I really wanted to attend but the thought of feeling the rejection or embarrassment has held me back once again, losing one friend at a time. I would love to advance my position at work, but the fear of messing up or not being smart enough has hindered me from becoming successfull and accomplished. I feel jealous of friendships becuase I know I cant really have that bond. I avoid the lunch breakroom because when anxiety comes, my mind draws blank and I have nothing to say for conversation and say something way off that makes me feel embarrassed in front of my co-workers. I hate meetings because I feel like all eyes are on me. I am a student in college and I plan to become a social worker in about two years and work for CPS (child protective services). I am looking into meeting with a counselor to help me with this and my church of course(Lakewood, Pastor Joel Osteen :) ). If you want to talk or vent feel free to message me sometime. I know it sounds cheesy, but we can overcome together:)
 

creep_x

Well-known member
i know how it feels to have eyes staring & people judging u all the time, i guess we all can relate to it
weclome to the forums prissy
 
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