whos_that_girl
Active member
Today I am extremely depressed after going to the gym to workout. I feel awful that after a year of going there, i've never really talked to anyone. I shouldn't do this, but i'm always looking at other people and how they are talking to other people, laughing, smiling and I feel like a total loser. I try to smile and talk, but end up feeling so uncomfortable that I avoid being too close to people. I'm so sick of going through this, that today all I want to do is stay in my house and cry. I have no friends where I live, and i'm so scared that I will never make another friend. I try and do meet people, mostly online, and it doesn't work out. I'm always afraid that people find me weird, snobby, etc. and I try not to care about that but I do. I'm on new meds now, one is Paxil that supposedly helps social anxiety. I also found a social anxiety treatment facility an hour from where I live, but i'd have to take the bus and pay for that plus the groups and I cannot afford that since my brother is helping me financially. I don't know what to do anymore, i'm very scared. ::