Eye contact and head movement

Whenever you go places with someone you know who is so called "normal" does anyone you meet up with on the way always just stare at that normal person and never you (eye contact)... i'm always hitting the gym or going elsewhere with this one guy i know who's very social and everytime they just stare at him while i'm just the side kick...

also when going to restaurant especially, the waiters always stare at the other person i'm with.. for example.. my sister is approachable type of person and waiter/waitress always stare at her and they can easily pickup on my nerves and or lack of interest... haha i can't hind or disguise anything!

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Strange. All those social situations you listed are the last places you'd find me.

dutchie, I hate people who play with their cell phones to look cool. I'd rather sit straight and stare into space, even if I look like a fucking creep than pretend to do something to look better.

I don't mean to be offensive, but when I read that I picture some cool person who doesn't want to look like the loser they are and should be accepting their self as, so instead they play with their phone to look like they are important.

I hate phones and talking on phones with a vengeance. I have a TracFone for emergencies only. I consider people with cell phones, especially those who take them out in public, and play with them or otherwise flaunt them, to be socially-acceptable people, unlike me.

Don't get me wrong, I would envy you if that were the case. But you are too contrasting. You describe your terrible anxieties yet you flaunt your cell phone. Those contrast to me.

I want people to accept my weirdness, not accept a mask. I want to be myself and not feel anxiety. That is my goal.

Sorry for being an asshole. Trust me, it's not you.

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