end my thoughts once and for all?

im so sick of my thoughts im so damn sick of them. iv tryed everything anyone has told me to try besides checking in to a syco ward....AND IM NOT SO STOP TELL ME THIS DAMNET. im getting weaker like every week not i cant think clearly anymore and i cant just ignor them like there not there i tryed that and i whent insain. i dont see anykind of life style like this leaving in fear everyday and having nightmears everynight allways scared of myself and my thoughts. theres so much streass in mylife eeryone i know is moving on with there lifes and my parents hold me back and want let me move on with my life they still treat me like im 10. im so tired of being traped in this damn plase. im so sad all the time. should i just end it?

Tell me about it, I might not get as bad thoughts at you, but somtimes I just think shit I don't wanna think about, its like its a different person, ill be thinking bout somthing, then it just disappears.