milo2020
Active member
So, I have many things on my plate and don't know where to start, I want some upgrade from my boring life on the farm and put my online CBT booklet to the test.
I like to try volunteering, but all the places I'd like to try, like the regional wildlife trust, national park are a drive away to another town.
I'd like to go travelling, I can afford it, so many countries I'd like to visit, even within the UK, but I'm more attracted to going somewhere different, I'd love to visit Canada or Australia, try volunteering or doing temporary paid jobs using the working holiday visa programme, which are for 18-31y/o but never pushed myself to do it, and I'm now 29....30 next year.
I spent many years practicing Spanish and French because I'd love to go to France Spain and Argentina, but have never been, and the only contact I been with the language is online with natives, videos and TV.
So it's hard to know where to start, I been abroad many times before with family, relatives, but never alone. In my mind it looks scary, and it's hard to break the ice. I don't know if I'll like it, get home sick, do something stupid, forget my common sense.
I live and work on a family farm, I only do farming because it's what my parents wanted me to do, I don't find it fun, exciting or profitable, as livestock farming on the hills of Wales isn't really that profitable. I fear if I go they'll be dissapointed in me, the farm is already on a joint account or joint business.
If I get out of here, everyone else will have to change, tenants renting the house on one of the farm will have to move if it was to be sold etc. And the older they get, and I get, the more responsibilities. I'm in two minds as to whether I still want to live this kind of life, or will I regret everything.
I don't have any qualifications in anything else, it would be nice to try a paid work, but that might be hard around here as it's only a small town.
I like to try volunteering, but all the places I'd like to try, like the regional wildlife trust, national park are a drive away to another town.
I'd like to go travelling, I can afford it, so many countries I'd like to visit, even within the UK, but I'm more attracted to going somewhere different, I'd love to visit Canada or Australia, try volunteering or doing temporary paid jobs using the working holiday visa programme, which are for 18-31y/o but never pushed myself to do it, and I'm now 29....30 next year.
I spent many years practicing Spanish and French because I'd love to go to France Spain and Argentina, but have never been, and the only contact I been with the language is online with natives, videos and TV.
So it's hard to know where to start, I been abroad many times before with family, relatives, but never alone. In my mind it looks scary, and it's hard to break the ice. I don't know if I'll like it, get home sick, do something stupid, forget my common sense.
I live and work on a family farm, I only do farming because it's what my parents wanted me to do, I don't find it fun, exciting or profitable, as livestock farming on the hills of Wales isn't really that profitable. I fear if I go they'll be dissapointed in me, the farm is already on a joint account or joint business.
If I get out of here, everyone else will have to change, tenants renting the house on one of the farm will have to move if it was to be sold etc. And the older they get, and I get, the more responsibilities. I'm in two minds as to whether I still want to live this kind of life, or will I regret everything.
I don't have any qualifications in anything else, it would be nice to try a paid work, but that might be hard around here as it's only a small town.