blessmysoul
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from my previous and perhaps present ocd, even after seeing a pyschiatrist who said so.. i still sometimes wonder.. if i am truly i mean in the recent few weeks i have come to appreciate other mental issues that may or may not have been a point of discussion for me.. like i am wondering if now if i was or still am ADHD, or schizophreniac , Autistic somewhat .. when i recall my past .. i feel i am not even sure now.. if its truly ocd and that my current-- hocd + pocd that has wrecked my life simultaneously .. yep they both appeared when my hocd 1st started..
I mean i use to remember when i was 19 yrs when my most observable ocd / religious blasphemy showed up and thought well that lasted at least 3 yrs that how can i continue at a job where my ruminating will get even worse when i began showing signs of hocd.. . 2 yrs now but i was wondering what might have triggered my hocd.. was it my Constipation that i had for the 1st time in my life which lasted a week until i took some pills to address it.. then a few weeks later.. i visited my sister who was going through a schizophrenic / pyschosis episode... or something resembling a nervous breakdown...coincidentally it was at my sister that i had a very long excretion i felt i emptied my bowels then my constipation started ... i have gone over this with my pschiatrist just need a second or 3rd opinion..
i have always liked girls my age esp older women ...as well .. i never have liked male friends in any sexual way..i wasnt very successful with girls didnt have a real girl friend for yrs to come i know my eyes have looked at younger girls but not in a sexual way, i was able to block any bad thoughts out the second it wanted to appear in my mind.. i have morals lets say.. although going to an all boys high school i had liked several girls of my age bracket but i was slow of words, shy around them or to scared to go up to girls in my early highschool life.. what occurs in the body like constipation does that affect serotonin/dopamine levels.???. i was very quiet/shy as a boy..dont get me wrong i had fun growing up being around both sexes.. climbing trees picking fruits ... playing dominoes etc.. my objective is to get answers without further confusing anyone i have one more point to make i will add it soon but based on what i said so far ...
I mean i use to remember when i was 19 yrs when my most observable ocd / religious blasphemy showed up and thought well that lasted at least 3 yrs that how can i continue at a job where my ruminating will get even worse when i began showing signs of hocd.. . 2 yrs now but i was wondering what might have triggered my hocd.. was it my Constipation that i had for the 1st time in my life which lasted a week until i took some pills to address it.. then a few weeks later.. i visited my sister who was going through a schizophrenic / pyschosis episode... or something resembling a nervous breakdown...coincidentally it was at my sister that i had a very long excretion i felt i emptied my bowels then my constipation started ... i have gone over this with my pschiatrist just need a second or 3rd opinion..
i have always liked girls my age esp older women ...as well .. i never have liked male friends in any sexual way..i wasnt very successful with girls didnt have a real girl friend for yrs to come i know my eyes have looked at younger girls but not in a sexual way, i was able to block any bad thoughts out the second it wanted to appear in my mind.. i have morals lets say.. although going to an all boys high school i had liked several girls of my age bracket but i was slow of words, shy around them or to scared to go up to girls in my early highschool life.. what occurs in the body like constipation does that affect serotonin/dopamine levels.???. i was very quiet/shy as a boy..dont get me wrong i had fun growing up being around both sexes.. climbing trees picking fruits ... playing dominoes etc.. my objective is to get answers without further confusing anyone i have one more point to make i will add it soon but based on what i said so far ...