I remember I had one moment when I was nine, and I felt totally free of it, we had this bike riding course at school, and I remember riding around on it, not worrying about anything...totally free....and then the riding instructor told my teacher she thought I was retarded, who then told my mother I was a retard, who then sent me to a shrink...that single most hurtful and humiliating moment of my life has stayed with me, but at least I was free for a short while