After years of put downs, ridicule, name calling, etc in my teenage years I realise that I have developed beliefs that if anyone sees my imperfections or flaws that they will definitely judge me negatively and that its those flaws/imperfections that define me to other people.
I became so self conscious of my flaws/imperfections to protect myself from being hurt and being judged in ways I was so hurt by. I believed if people saw my nose was a bit bigger than ideal they'd think negatively of how I look and that I am ugly or ridicule me, I believed if anyone heard me say a word wrong due to a minor speech impediment they'd ridicule and laugh.
I am stuck believing people judge me on my flaws/imperfections. It is this that makes me so self conscious and anxious around people.
I wonder if people really are critical when they see my imperfections/flaws? I mean we all have them, no one is perfect yet others don't seem to be judging others negatively.
I don't know the reality of how I am being judged any more when people see my flaws. Does anyone feel the same way?
I became so self conscious of my flaws/imperfections to protect myself from being hurt and being judged in ways I was so hurt by. I believed if people saw my nose was a bit bigger than ideal they'd think negatively of how I look and that I am ugly or ridicule me, I believed if anyone heard me say a word wrong due to a minor speech impediment they'd ridicule and laugh.
I am stuck believing people judge me on my flaws/imperfections. It is this that makes me so self conscious and anxious around people.
I wonder if people really are critical when they see my imperfections/flaws? I mean we all have them, no one is perfect yet others don't seem to be judging others negatively.
I don't know the reality of how I am being judged any more when people see my flaws. Does anyone feel the same way?