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I've been agoraphobic and suffering from severe OCD for about 17 years now. I lost my entire youth to these illnesses. To top it off I was diagnosed as bipolar about 10 years back. I literally never leave my house except to see my psychiatrist every 8 weeks. I have no friends, NONE. I don't know if anyone can imagine the level of isolation I live on a daily basis. The only person I ever see or talk to is my long-suffering mother. Even people in prison get more social interaction than I do. It's like a self-imposed prison, it really is. I live in a state of fear and desperation constantly. My OCD obsessions, rules and rituals TORMENT me. I am desperate to meet people in similiar situations, that can relate to me on some level as I feel so terribly alone. I'd love to hear other people's stories. Maybe we can become friends or just commiserate. Well, thanks for listening. Hope someone hears me.