are you a serious person?

weekends are awesome. you can relax, party it up with some buds... forget how much your job sucks... social anxiety almost seems to disappear. if i could keep up with a mindset like this, even though my job sucks and i have to confront a ton of annoying people all week long, i would be king. i'd be free from all the tension.

i don't know if anybody's like this, but when the week comes, i get uber, uber serious. i start to feel everything eat away at me. how somebody looks at me could depict how i feel for the next half hour. how i said 'hi' to somebody - was it weak? raspy? did i sound like a douchebag? it could screw up my whole morning. i get into this weird state of mind where i feel like other people are in control of how i feel about myself. i get so afraid of what people will think that I can't even think straight.

then the weekend comes again, and i feel GREAT. i know in my own head that i'm in control of what I think about myself, and i couldn't care less about what anybody says. cause i'm grounded, i know where i stand.

i just wonder sometimes if anybody else feels this sort of jekyll/hyde thing going on as well. it almost feels as though if i could just quit caring, all of the bad vibes would go away. i just wanna feel great all the time, not just some of the time (and no, i'm not talking about alcohol or substance use at all)

Well I don't agree that weekends are awesome, they are just like any other day to me. I don't even ever know what day it is because everyday is exactly the same to me . I'm not really serious serious, or the complete opposite. I'm usually just like blah, so you can't really tell. Half and half maybe?

I can relate to you kinda. But I try not to take anything seriously because I've kinda realized that there is absolutely no reason for existance, so I may as well just have fun. If you spend most of your time on school, work, and other "serious" stuff like that then is life really worth living??

But yeah for me it gets tough to let loose and have fun during the school week....weekends are fine but when I go to class all my ideas about life and how it should be lived just go away because I'm too scared to implement them or something..

freestylemonster said:

...because I've kinda realized that there is absolutely no reason for existance, so I may as well just have fun. If you spend most of your time on school, work, and other "serious" stuff like that then is life really worth living??

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talk about taking something negative and totally transforming it into something positive! most people feel like there's no reason for living, just because there's no meaning in their life. but i guess even that can be a positive, and fun thing in the end anyway. that's the coolest thing i've read on here all day

I can be serious or not serious depending on the circumstances. I feel like I want to laugh and be carefree, but I'm always worrying about something or getting myself depressed about not having any friends. Most of the time, I probably just look way too nervous and uneasy.

I'm serious-seeming mostly. Awhile ago at work one of my co-workers played bump me in the hip area with her hip. I didn't actually see her do it as I was working on something, but I felt it. I then said, "Sorry." And She laughed and said, "She said sorry. I was playing with you. Don't be so serious."

Since I don't talk much and usually not smiling unless someone is talking to me and being kind or funny, I come across as serious. And sometimes I guess I do have a hard time distinguishing from a joke or not.

Another example was in HS. I was getting my books out of the locker when my lockermate said, "Hurry up" in a rushed voice. I thought he was serious, so I sort of gave this cocky face and mumbled "Shutup." Not sure if he saw or heard that, but he said, "I'm just joking."

So yeah, I can be quite serious. Even though I do like to laugh alot and such. I very much have a serious/tense attitude about me.

God I was thinking about this the other day. I'm one of those people who thinks she's more fun than she actually probably is. LOL I know some really funny people who completely change the mood of a night out if they come along. I'm usually the one having the deep convo with someone in the corner. Blah.

Jellybeans said:

weekends are awesome. you can relax, party it up with some buds... forget how much your job sucks... social anxiety almost seems to disappear. if i could keep up with a mindset like this, even though my job sucks and i have to confront a ton of annoying people all week long, i would be king. i'd be free from all the tension.

i don't know if anybody's like this, but when the week comes, i get uber, uber serious. i start to feel everything eat away at me. how somebody looks at me could depict how i feel for the next half hour. how i said 'hi' to somebody - was it weak? raspy? did i sound like a douchebag? it could screw up my whole morning. i get into this weird state of mind where i feel like other people are in control of how i feel about myself. i get so afraid of what people will think that I can't even think straight.

then the weekend comes again, and i feel GREAT. i know in my own head that i'm in control of what I think about myself, and i couldn't care less about what anybody says. cause i'm grounded, i know where i stand.

i just wonder sometimes if anybody else feels this sort of jekyll/hyde thing going on as well. it almost feels as though if i could just quit caring, all of the bad vibes would go away. i just wanna feel great all the time, not just some of the time (and no, i'm not talking about alcohol or substance use at all)

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good bud would be nice

i hate being serious but i just can't relax around people and don't usually go out much because i think i come across as too serious and anxious looking ...so i dont look forward to weekends for partying reasons, i probably only have 2 parties a year to go to and in terms of nightclubs, i can't stand them unless they are indie clubs or quiet pubs ...i find most nightclubs to be uncomfortable and generally play annoying chart music ..most of the really social people tend to gravitate towards the really cool people ..its a very intimidating place in my eyes anyway..

I'm about as non serious as people come.

seriously

Serafina said:

Yes and no.

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tipical woman cant make up her mind i mean jesus the question is simple enough but oh no a woman has to make it complicated

no, I don't take much of anything very seriously

It is like we are all in prison.

Psychedelicious said:

Well I don't agree that weekends are awesome, they are just like any other day to me. I don't even ever know what day it is because everyday is exactly the same to me . I'm not really serious serious, or the complete opposite. I'm usually just like blah, so you can't really tell. Half and half maybe?

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This is how I feel. I rarely do anything on my days off, so it's all the same.
I usually work weekends now, but on my days off I usually spend the time inside playing Xbox.. It's an exciting life we live!

i dont know how to be serious , well i do but i like to have a laugh .....

I hate being serious. It's no fun. I only get serious when I'm upset and worrying about money or other things, but that doesn't happen much. Money is one of the really big things that gives me major anxiety. Luckily, I don't HAVE to think about money, because my boyfriend and my sister take care of all the money stuff. The problem is my boyfriend is a bit irresponsible with money and that always worries me. What I try to do is when I catch myself thinking about it, I breath and tell myself not to worry about things I'm not in control of and that things will work out. It's hard to put so much trust in my boyfriend and my sister, but I have to.

But basically, I'm anti-serious. I don't WANT to be serious, I want to be silly and weird, like I am when I'm alone. The problem is being around other people. The fears of being judged and not accepted trumps the desire to be me most of the time. That's what I'm working on now. It's good practice to try to really be me with my sister and boyfriend (which is harder with my sister, but still hard with both) At this point I feel like my silliness around them is often fake and forced, because I want to appear comfortable when I'm really not. Once I feel like I'm able to relax and be me at home with them, I'll branch out to being out around the rest of the world more.

Weekends make no difference for me because I don't have a job, so I'm always home and all days are either sunny or cloudy. That's what makes the day. Sunny days I'm happy and full of energy, cloudy days I'm a bit stuck but once my art studio is ready (I'm moving stuff in today) I'll just spend my cloudy days hidden away in there.

I can see how weekend would be so hard when you have a job. From what I've observed on SPW, it seems that most of us are here because we worry too much, mostly about what other people think of us and how good or bad we are at what we're doing. Maybe having a normal job just isn't for you? I know it's not for me! I'm living on SSI right now, because sh*t's pretty bad when I'm not at my house, but I'm trying to get to a place where I can make a living off of my art. The only work I can handle is manual labor (I need to be TIRED after a day of work, and to be able to see the result of my work) where I just do my thing and don't have to interact with costumers. We also have a "local currency" in my area, so when I'm able to, I'll be earning credit on there, rather than in the job scene, since we use a lot of the services offered buy my boyfriend and my sister don't have much time for it.