ld323
Active member
When people approach me to talk I always feel I'm giving off a strong negative "aura" or weird/strange VIBE. It feels so strong that I think I've become the embodiment to my thoughts, therefore actually CAUSE the negativity to happen!! I get confirmation of this when others start to walk away or look uncomfortable. Now I would understand it if I was disfigured in some way, but I don't "think" that I am (fortunately not yet at least).
What the hell kind of sickness is this? My brain is just so programmed for self-destruction that I often feel helpless and out of control. It seems to just want me to fail. To not be liked. To be hated and alone. WTF?!?!? Maybe it's just my karma. Or maybe someone has put a curse on me.
HOW in the world does one obtain an EGO??? Look at people like Clinton or Obama, they have enormous egos, whether it be real or fake. But they have the power to make others believe and like them and look up to them. I wish I had at least 1% of this. I have ZERO ego.
What the hell kind of sickness is this? My brain is just so programmed for self-destruction that I often feel helpless and out of control. It seems to just want me to fail. To not be liked. To be hated and alone. WTF?!?!? Maybe it's just my karma. Or maybe someone has put a curse on me.
HOW in the world does one obtain an EGO??? Look at people like Clinton or Obama, they have enormous egos, whether it be real or fake. But they have the power to make others believe and like them and look up to them. I wish I had at least 1% of this. I have ZERO ego.