Jungle
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Hello,
Lately, I have met a woman at a language Meetup, which since, I see at least once a week.
I've proposed to meet her outside of the Meetup context 3 times, she agreed every time, we then would go outside just for walking and talking about whatever that would cross our minds, but we would quickly run out of intelligent things to discuss, and this would turn into small talk, which I hate.
The first time, she told me that she felt that I was trying to chat her up, I ended up speaking my mind by telling her that I found her cute and that I was attracted by her.
This led to a second and third "date", same routine, walking and speaking, I asked her if we could hold hands while walking (I meant it as a joke, I just wanted to see her reaction, she then laughed and looked shy), except this time she invited me over to her place, we didn't do anything in particular.....for me, having intercourse is out of the question, I could have kissed her before leaving, but I felt guilty about it, so I didn't.
I realize now that dating a woman isn't as magic as I expected it.
Because I end up talking about stupid things.
Because I would kind of invest that time in a more productive way.
Because I would feel guilty of something.
I don't know if I want to carry on with this.
Lately, I have met a woman at a language Meetup, which since, I see at least once a week.
I've proposed to meet her outside of the Meetup context 3 times, she agreed every time, we then would go outside just for walking and talking about whatever that would cross our minds, but we would quickly run out of intelligent things to discuss, and this would turn into small talk, which I hate.
The first time, she told me that she felt that I was trying to chat her up, I ended up speaking my mind by telling her that I found her cute and that I was attracted by her.
This led to a second and third "date", same routine, walking and speaking, I asked her if we could hold hands while walking (I meant it as a joke, I just wanted to see her reaction, she then laughed and looked shy), except this time she invited me over to her place, we didn't do anything in particular.....for me, having intercourse is out of the question, I could have kissed her before leaving, but I felt guilty about it, so I didn't.
I realize now that dating a woman isn't as magic as I expected it.
Because I end up talking about stupid things.
Because I would kind of invest that time in a more productive way.
Because I would feel guilty of something.
I don't know if I want to carry on with this.