after reading most of your posts psy , half your problem is you spend way to much time on your computer , there is another life beyond that comp , but you have to make steps to change your life , the only person that can help you , is you , you have got yourself into bad cycle and its not going to change unless you make the steps to change yourself , i know its a scarey world out there , but reading your posts you seem quite intelligent , so start going out more dont turn into a recluse , your not happy are you ? so do something to change that lol , sorry for going on but i hate to think of you just getting up in the morning , to nothing nothing nothing as you put it , i hate talking to people i avoid it , but that doesnt mean turn into a recluse , so come on psy get out of that house have a lil sunshine on your face , turn your life around gazza