rado31
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:?: my brain seems not able to see positives aspects of anything/or even to accept it when they are occuring. Like total cloud of depression.
Not able to enjoy anything-it is called anhedonism or so, ha?
For many years i used to visualize things that i like and now i seem to be ran out of such visions. Garbage is everywhere.
I had never ever proper relationship with girls (Maybe it would be even worse that i had and lost it huh) ; friends and even closest family turnout to be fake (This sukk very much). I m trying to touch postive aspects of past. when i did have at least some decent level of self worth life had got some meaning (lots of challenges, interests).
I seem totally disconected from everyday people now. In city where i live everyone seemes to gain some (uhm etiquette) peasent mentality. And_this_is_not_overgeneralization.
What to talk to them? I was never interested in new cars, new hardware,gossips,daytime politics,reality shows,even most of actual movies. Maybe i should join some ecologal movement, although i believe it is that type of campaing totaly useless.
ghmm...I used to be looking forward for spring to come to drive bike a bit..Maybe to do that in a drunk state, although with my mass it would be serious threat for pedestrians ..Hm..Do i have victimizing mentality ...how in the hell to get rid of it if i have it -_-When i will finally be spontaneous 24/7 again.. Phuf..thank you for reading this interesting article.
Not able to enjoy anything-it is called anhedonism or so, ha?
For many years i used to visualize things that i like and now i seem to be ran out of such visions. Garbage is everywhere.
I had never ever proper relationship with girls (Maybe it would be even worse that i had and lost it huh) ; friends and even closest family turnout to be fake (This sukk very much). I m trying to touch postive aspects of past. when i did have at least some decent level of self worth life had got some meaning (lots of challenges, interests).
I seem totally disconected from everyday people now. In city where i live everyone seemes to gain some (uhm etiquette) peasent mentality. And_this_is_not_overgeneralization.
What to talk to them? I was never interested in new cars, new hardware,gossips,daytime politics,reality shows,even most of actual movies. Maybe i should join some ecologal movement, although i believe it is that type of campaing totaly useless.
ghmm...I used to be looking forward for spring to come to drive bike a bit..Maybe to do that in a drunk state, although with my mass it would be serious threat for pedestrians ..Hm..Do i have victimizing mentality ...how in the hell to get rid of it if i have it -_-When i will finally be spontaneous 24/7 again.. Phuf..thank you for reading this interesting article.