ShySam2013
New member
Hi everyone,
I have just joined today & wanted to say hi - I spotted that there are a few more people from Bournemouth so wanted to introduce myself & share a bit about my issues/story.
I came across this site whilst searching about being quiet at work. I've been having a quick look through people's posts on here & it's been like a weight has been lifted as I thought I was entirely alone with the issues I have!!
My main problem is at work - I barely speak to people but I do try to go out make a round of teas for the very small team I work with to try & get myself "out there" amongst other colleagues but mainly I will disengage with my surroundings & focus on the computer screen especially on a bad day, I'm pretty sure that my colleagues either think I'm rude/a bitch/arrogant &/or a weirdo. For example, I went to the work Christmas party recently & took my partner with me for support & even then I wanted to run away - I felt physically sick the entire time & we left quietly whilst everyone else was partying - it was awful & made me feel utterly wretched about myself - it took the best part of a week just to get over that one evening.
There are times when I just wish someone would come along & do all the responsible, adult stuff for me although I try very, very hard to cope with that myself - I just get utterly drained & emotionally exhausted from it at times.
I'm really looking forward to reading more posts & engaging with people on here as it feels like it is somewhere I can be myself without worrying - wish the real world was like that!!
Thank you everyone
Sam
I have just joined today & wanted to say hi - I spotted that there are a few more people from Bournemouth so wanted to introduce myself & share a bit about my issues/story.
I came across this site whilst searching about being quiet at work. I've been having a quick look through people's posts on here & it's been like a weight has been lifted as I thought I was entirely alone with the issues I have!!
My main problem is at work - I barely speak to people but I do try to go out make a round of teas for the very small team I work with to try & get myself "out there" amongst other colleagues but mainly I will disengage with my surroundings & focus on the computer screen especially on a bad day, I'm pretty sure that my colleagues either think I'm rude/a bitch/arrogant &/or a weirdo. For example, I went to the work Christmas party recently & took my partner with me for support & even then I wanted to run away - I felt physically sick the entire time & we left quietly whilst everyone else was partying - it was awful & made me feel utterly wretched about myself - it took the best part of a week just to get over that one evening.
There are times when I just wish someone would come along & do all the responsible, adult stuff for me although I try very, very hard to cope with that myself - I just get utterly drained & emotionally exhausted from it at times.
I'm really looking forward to reading more posts & engaging with people on here as it feels like it is somewhere I can be myself without worrying - wish the real world was like that!!
Thank you everyone
Sam