agoraphobickatie
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Woah.. I haven't been here in ages!! Like many of you, I'm not "cured" or "normal" now, lol.. My anxiety/OCD has really just evolved and I'm not sure how exactly to deal with it the best way.. Maybe someone can relate? People all the time are like "yeahh, I have anxiety, too! I get nervous in big crowds!" and that's nice, I can relate, but I don't know anyone who has the same types of fears/OCD that I do..
Basically, I've kind of narrowed it down to a few major "phobias" that I have. One being the phobia of throwing up. I go into serious panic if I get nauseous, exponentially more so when I'm not at home in my "safe zone." Also, I have this crazy fear of having to be rushed to the hospital for any reason, usually I fear it'll be my appendix or gall bladder or something and I'll have to rush to the hospital for emergency surgery. At the slightest pain in my side, I go into full panic and start thinking of all the terrible things that could happen, etc etc.. This has really caused my body to actually FEEL physical symptoms of stuff when there's seemingly nothing wrong with me. Like I've gone the past few years having random "pains" (nothing super painful, almost just like a "feeling" that I'm aware of) in my side, all over the place and nothing has been wrong. I go through phases where I'm kind of on top of things and don't have any "pain" at all..
Anyway, I'm not sure where either of these phobias came from, because I've never experienced either of these things. I'm just terrified I'll have to be rushed to the hospital in all kinds of pain and puking, etc etc.. One thing (person) that I kind of lean on is my dad. I think "okay well at least dad doesn't live far away, he can take me and I'll be okay because dad will be with me." ..so when he goes out of town, I'm basically in a state of constant distress because I'm so dependent on him being able to "save" me if something happens... and this is super weird, on account of I'm 29 years old and don't live with my parents..
So I'm still pretty agoraphobic, because I fear something bad will happen if I'm not at home and I won't be in my comfort zone so it'll be way worse.. Like puking or having some kind of gall attack or whatever, really anything, lol.. I work every day, but my job is my family's business, super low key, and it's about 1 mile from my home, so I'm super blessed, but it's also not a huge challenge to face every day.. some days are harder than others. I pretty much just work and go home and don't venture out anywhere else. At all..
Does anyone relate to these kinds of fears or lifestyle? How have you dealt with it, etc? Let me know, guys! Much love--
Basically, I've kind of narrowed it down to a few major "phobias" that I have. One being the phobia of throwing up. I go into serious panic if I get nauseous, exponentially more so when I'm not at home in my "safe zone." Also, I have this crazy fear of having to be rushed to the hospital for any reason, usually I fear it'll be my appendix or gall bladder or something and I'll have to rush to the hospital for emergency surgery. At the slightest pain in my side, I go into full panic and start thinking of all the terrible things that could happen, etc etc.. This has really caused my body to actually FEEL physical symptoms of stuff when there's seemingly nothing wrong with me. Like I've gone the past few years having random "pains" (nothing super painful, almost just like a "feeling" that I'm aware of) in my side, all over the place and nothing has been wrong. I go through phases where I'm kind of on top of things and don't have any "pain" at all..
Anyway, I'm not sure where either of these phobias came from, because I've never experienced either of these things. I'm just terrified I'll have to be rushed to the hospital in all kinds of pain and puking, etc etc.. One thing (person) that I kind of lean on is my dad. I think "okay well at least dad doesn't live far away, he can take me and I'll be okay because dad will be with me." ..so when he goes out of town, I'm basically in a state of constant distress because I'm so dependent on him being able to "save" me if something happens... and this is super weird, on account of I'm 29 years old and don't live with my parents..
So I'm still pretty agoraphobic, because I fear something bad will happen if I'm not at home and I won't be in my comfort zone so it'll be way worse.. Like puking or having some kind of gall attack or whatever, really anything, lol.. I work every day, but my job is my family's business, super low key, and it's about 1 mile from my home, so I'm super blessed, but it's also not a huge challenge to face every day.. some days are harder than others. I pretty much just work and go home and don't venture out anywhere else. At all..
Does anyone relate to these kinds of fears or lifestyle? How have you dealt with it, etc? Let me know, guys! Much love--