dannyboy65
Well-known member
I haven't been having to many issues with my illness for a while till about a few weeks ago. I sleep all day if I can, and I barely eat. I probably only eat once a day. I don't want to be social with anyone anymore. Hell I think everyone hates me or is out to get me. I'm scared of everything with how shitty this world has become.
I have a great girlfriend and she really cares, in fact, I think she's the only girl who has ever cared for me this much. Yet I treat her like shit and she doesn't let that stop her. I don't deserve her, I barely speak to her when we are together and I don't text her often anymore. I'm always sad or anxious now, and I feel drained. I told my teacher today about my issues and she understood.
I some times tell myself I should end it with my girlfriend cause if I do she won't get hurt if I push her away. But I don't want to do that because I know she really cares about me and will be there the whole way. Like F*&$ can't even be happy when I have everything going so well in my life. All the good that has been happening to me and I'm still feeling like complete S**t. I'm getting really tired of this. I want to be happy, yet it feels almost impossible to be happy.
I do everything good. I have good morals, I'm a positive person, I have a lot of friends, I've got a lovely girlfriend, and I'm on my way to do the job I really want. Why on f***ing earth am I still feeling like crap. I'm fed up with having so much mental illness. I've been trying all my best to live with it cause that's all I can do but I'm wearing down. I don't know what I should do.
I have a great girlfriend and she really cares, in fact, I think she's the only girl who has ever cared for me this much. Yet I treat her like shit and she doesn't let that stop her. I don't deserve her, I barely speak to her when we are together and I don't text her often anymore. I'm always sad or anxious now, and I feel drained. I told my teacher today about my issues and she understood.
I some times tell myself I should end it with my girlfriend cause if I do she won't get hurt if I push her away. But I don't want to do that because I know she really cares about me and will be there the whole way. Like F*&$ can't even be happy when I have everything going so well in my life. All the good that has been happening to me and I'm still feeling like complete S**t. I'm getting really tired of this. I want to be happy, yet it feels almost impossible to be happy.
I do everything good. I have good morals, I'm a positive person, I have a lot of friends, I've got a lovely girlfriend, and I'm on my way to do the job I really want. Why on f***ing earth am I still feeling like crap. I'm fed up with having so much mental illness. I've been trying all my best to live with it cause that's all I can do but I'm wearing down. I don't know what I should do.