sahxox
Well-known member
Hey guys,
I've never officially been diagnosed with anything (need to avoid mental health professionals lol) but fit overwhelming amounts of diagnostic criteria for both social anxiety for the past almost 10 years and even AVPD.
I am much better at handling my anxiety... I mask it with disassociation/apathy. Probably not any healthier though!
Background: I am an introvert, can be shy at times, do suffer from social anxiety occasionally.
I'll cut to the chase, this is my situation.
I cannot physically partake in a group conversation!! I just cannot do it!!
Lol everyone will be sitting around, talking at work, and I will go into freeze mode. I will pretend I'm busy/preoccupied, but when I'm not, just sit there and not join in.
Then I leave, with an overwhelming void of sadness.
I just don't get it, and I'd be lying if I were to say it's not killing me inside.
I'm happy with pretty much every other element of my life, but always this bias that if I am not participating, I feel I have no worth. That I don't connect to people, unless they are my good friends or family.
I feel depressed as hell following when this happens.
I just feel I can't be myself in these situations!!
I've never officially been diagnosed with anything (need to avoid mental health professionals lol) but fit overwhelming amounts of diagnostic criteria for both social anxiety for the past almost 10 years and even AVPD.
I am much better at handling my anxiety... I mask it with disassociation/apathy. Probably not any healthier though!
Background: I am an introvert, can be shy at times, do suffer from social anxiety occasionally.
I'll cut to the chase, this is my situation.
I cannot physically partake in a group conversation!! I just cannot do it!!
Lol everyone will be sitting around, talking at work, and I will go into freeze mode. I will pretend I'm busy/preoccupied, but when I'm not, just sit there and not join in.
Then I leave, with an overwhelming void of sadness.
I just don't get it, and I'd be lying if I were to say it's not killing me inside.
I'm happy with pretty much every other element of my life, but always this bias that if I am not participating, I feel I have no worth. That I don't connect to people, unless they are my good friends or family.
I feel depressed as hell following when this happens.
I just feel I can't be myself in these situations!!