Symptoms have returned.

Quietguy11

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Hey guys, I'm back, but this time it's not to talk about how much progression I've been making. Some of my Schizophrenia feelings have come back sadly and I fear that all the progression I've made was for nothing. Here are some of the symptoms I'm talking about: Fear of speaking, fear of interacting with others, fear of locking eyes with another person (fear of eye contact), and paranoid thoughts (such as the thought of my family judging me and picking up on nasty vibes.)

I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia from a psychiatrist who I've been seeing for over two years now. These symptoms are very real to me. They usually occur at night, but they can be pretty bad during the day as well. Living with this chronic mental illness has really destroyed a lot of my happiness and desire to live. It would be okay if it was something that I could overcome, but the condition is permanent in that I will probably live with Schizophrenia for the rest of my life. Medication has helped to some degree, and I've seen some good days, but since last week the symptoms have come back, and they've been pretty bad this time around.

I just want to apologize for my arrogance, for praising myself when I started to feel better while there are many people who only wish they could see some light at the end of the tunnel. I will never push medication on anyone else as long as I live. The truth is, it works, but there are other ways to cope with psychological disorders.

So for the time being I am back... again. :)
 

Steiner

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Welcome back, though I don't think I really saw you when you were here since I was banned for a bit at the time of your arrival and then I just felt discouraged from using the site. Whoops

I have a lot of those problems as well but I have no idea what I can do to fix them. I am feeling quite good for now but I know the good times will get shrouded in darkness at some point. Again.

Anyways.

Hope you can manage to find your happy days.
 
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nicole1

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I have a lot of those same symptoms. I will not diagnose you but ask are you sure that it's Paranoid Schizophrenia?

I'm sorry that you are troubled by those symptoms.
 

jaim38

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Welcome back! I don't think you're arrogant for praising yourself. I see it as positive self encouragement. Medication works for some and not for others.
 

Feathers

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Hi Quietguy!

Sorry to hear things did not continue to improve. You might want to look into some alternative views on schizophrenia: namely, some people see it as people experiencing 'extreme states' and there have been non-med or low-med approaches such as Open dialogue in Finland (and now the Open Dialogue is coming to US and UK, apparently, very exciting - not sure if they're in Canada yet?)

I've read somewhere CBT had good results for someone too, and someone was helped by nutrition and vitamins/minerals, so different things can help...

Hope things get better for you soon again!
 
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Quietguy11

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Thanks for your comments everybody. I don't know for sure if I have Paranoid Schizophrenia but that's what I've been led to believe because that's the diagnosis that was given to me by my doctor. I seem to have all the symptoms of someone who suffers with Schizophrenia with the exception of hearing voices and hallucinating. But I have experienced sleep paralysis more than once, and there is some hallucinating that happens during it. But I've never hallucinated while being fully conscious. I have considered looking into alternative means such as Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, and might ask my doctor if any courses are available for me to take. I am doing much better today, hardly any anxiety, and no paranoid thinking. Again, thanks for your comments. :)
 
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