sexual intrusive thoughts

Hi i don't know if I have already post this before but this is what happen to me like 2 years ago Well I've been dealing with depression and anxiety since I was 13 I'm 32 now I was feeling ok well depression is nothing compared to this Im really catholic so at that time I was leaving with somebody without getting married I got out of the situation so I ended up on the street It was ok until I started to experience panick attacks I decided to control them since they're not biggi to me. After that I started to experience some horrible thoughts like I was going to hurt children sexually. I would cried for hours I couldn't be around kids cause I would panicked I seriously thought that maybe I had a demon inside of me I started to look for priests so they can do exorcism but they never did. the think is that i want to find people that went throught the same i tried before but i feel that people in here don't want to talk with me cause im hispanic

A fear of hurting others is different than a desire to hurt others. Take peace in this. I have read about cases like this, and exposure therapy helped greatly. I will agree with the others in saying you should talk to a mental health professional who specializes in OCD.

I'm quite shocked by some of the replies on here a.People if you don't have something constructive to say they don't say anything.

These sorts of thoughts are quite common for some people and don't mean they are going to act on it.They are called intrusive thoughts for a reason.

To the op,I have seen many people with OCD who worry about similar things.For what it's worth if you really wanted to act on your thoughts..you would not be on here upset/worried and disturbed by them.You would think they were normal or you wouldn't care.

I think Tweetebird said it best.

OCD can come in many forms, and a fear of hurting others is just one branch. Again, it is a fear of hurting others, not a desire to. It is OCD. It is thoughts only, and very much unwanted thoughts.

I understand that it can be shocking to read about, but please let's not judge someone who is seeking help.

^Actually, it might be difficult for him to talk about such things with his doctor, you know . Talking about Social Anxiety (which isn't as bad in my opinion) is extremely difficult to me personally and have only told 2 people my entire life. Besides, talking about it online can always help.

Danfalc is right, a lot of people with OCD have pedophile thoughts, but in no way does it mean that they will act upon it - it's just their OCD.

Perlamaria, I will tell you what I told someone on this forum when I first joined - have you touched children inapropriately? Have you hurt children? Then you are a pedophile/someone that likes to hurt children. Or are you just a guy with OCD, who just simply obsesses about such things

I think it's worth posting here that pedophiles actually don't mind their thoughts and enjoy hurting children. Don't think that sounds like you though

This sounds very similar to pure O ocd, you really need to see a professional about this, you have done nothing wrong. I've suffered this in the past but mine was more related to jumping off heights or doing something crazy in public, basically the intrusive thoughts are 'the last thing you want to happen right now' popping into your head.

As for the comments here, we had to delete quite a few, if people do not understand OCD in it's many forms, please refrain from judging and condemning.

Any more and the mod team will hand out bans, we don't tolerate persecution on these forums

I'm not sure how much I can help you but I can tell you I can relate. At one point I was super religious, going to a catholic church on weekly basis, a very wholehearted believer. I still have that sort of mentality you could say, and have very intrusive thoughts. I won't get specific on the public form, but I do things in my head sometimes that I would never, never do in real life, things I detest to a very high degree. Just try to remember you can't control all your thoughts, no matter what you tell yourself or how hard you try. I assume you believe everything happens for a reason, so keep that in mind too. If I'm not mistaken you are still religious, so maybe try going to confession and talking to the priest about, I'm sure he has come across the issue before. Most important thing is to forgive yourself, don't hold it over your head. Good luck.