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Kiwong

Kiwong

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This social animal does not want to spend 2 days camping with 25 work colleagues at a love in. It isn't avoidance, it just not for me. I like the peace and quiet. I go home close the door and its bliss.
 
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Kiwong

Kiwong

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At a work love in, I have survived the first night. Been talking to people. I ate dinner with about 20 people, I haven't done this for over 20 years. Probably committed several terrible social sins. I forgive myself.
 
MollyBeGood

MollyBeGood

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Kiwong said:
At a work love in, I have survived the first night. Been talking to people. I ate dinner with about 20 people, I haven't done this for over 20 years. Probably committed several terrible social sins. I forgive myself.
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I think I commit social sins and sabotage myself socially because I cannot stand being in those situations so much. It's a terrible habit that I don't always have control over. I'd feel like a cornered animal at a dinner of 20. Most certainly I'd have to speak my mind to someone and regret it, or some stupid thing I'd do like that.

I think if you are like me, which you are, then you deserve a medal from such an event being completed! Yay for forgiving yourself, too. I have learned that is the most important part of living. Give yourself a break, we can be our WORST enemy.

Great job, Kiwong!:applause::thumbup:
 
PeterO

PeterO

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I am at my parents' house for a few days because my mom had surgery recently so I'm trying to help out. They are crazy hoarders -- tidy, but they just have so much STUFF -- and I keep thinking that when they die I'm going to have to sort through it all and it'll take forever.
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

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Thanks Molly, thats very kind of you. I'm home now, and exhausted. And you're right prople with anxiety like us are extra hard on ourselves.

Funnily enough began to enjoy being social. I played guitar and sang in front of 10 people. The people enjoyed my singing, and several thanked me, and like my song choices. Maybe I am social animal after all.

I hate to sound so sickenly positive, but what can I say when something goes well.

Right now I am wired, and the voices and faces are buzzing around in my head. I can't wind down from thoughts and sensory overload, so hard to let go of all that stimulus. I crashed to sleep for 4 hours as soon as I got home.
 
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FountainandFairfax

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
Uh-Oh, it looks like the new neighbors are moving in...

It appears to be three college aged guys; they seem alright, judging by what I've seen through the cracks in the blinds... bohemian types, not UFC wannabes. We'll see, though, douche-bags can take a while to percolate in new settings.

I hope there's no problems, I won't be here much longer and I don't need a parking space war while I'm trying to clean-up and move-out.
 
vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
I'd rather think that the world is broken and just needs to be fixed, or better still I'm broken and all I need is to fix that and the world will be all right. But sometimes I can't help but feel like the world isn't broken, but burnt. Burnt like a pan of brownies. You can make the most of a pan of burnt brownies, but you can't fix it. You could have unlimited power and there is no possible way for those brownies to become un-burnt. Being burnt is a fundamental feature of those brownies now. It wouldn't be that things aren't ideal, it's that the ideal literally is not possible. For some reason that distinction makes a difference to me.


Aside from that though, I am actually in quite high spirits right now. If things keep going as they are, things are looking up. Maybe I'll be able to cut myself a sliver out of the middle of the pan after all. :thumbup:
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
Hmm, i wonder if she likes me, or looks at all people the same way, and is just the "warm"/"hot" way she is???
The last time she we talked, she looked as bright & warm & friendly as the midday sun coming out from under the dark clouds.
Perhaps we are just on "friendly" terms, me being a regular customer whom she has "known" for about a year. Someone she trusts (it's been all good, i haven't put a foot wrong). And perhaps she smiles brightly & has a loving look in her eye for ALL of her "friends" & ALL of the customers?. I don't know.
I very much doubt i am "the one" for her, but could i be "ONE of the ones for her"???. I'm too scared to find out. I'm all about inaction. Do i suspect i'll be rejected by her, & thereby feel the feeling of rejection/etc again, & muck up the "thing" we have (if in fact it's a "thing" at all)???
 
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