How are you feeling?

PugofCrydee

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
BlueDays said:
I had a really depressing dream about living in an dictatorship style community/society last night.
When I woke up, for a few seconds there was ultimate relief with the realisation that it was just a dream/nightmare.

Then after looking at the clock and seeing I had about 5 mins until I had to get up, I started thinking of all the things I had to get done for the day.

My whole day was going to be taken up by required/forced activities that I had no choice whatsoever in whether I wanted to do them or not. :sad:

I miss when I used to be able to do whatever I wanted to do on my weekends.

My life now as an adult, consists of no longer having a single day in my whole 7 day week, where I can choose what I want to do for a whole day. :crying:

Life should not be this difficult.
I'm not "living"....this is just existing.


(and no, I am not in a Prison, but my life sure as hell feels like it :eek:h:)
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Yes.

Life is a prison.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
:kickingmyself: :kickingmyself: Just when summit starts going right, something else goes tae $h!te. F*CK!! :kickingmyself:
 
FountainandFairfax

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
Yeah, and staying away from ice cream wouldn't hurt either. :D

Thanks for the advice, lily. I really, really, need to start heeding some of this stuff.
 
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Kiwong

Kiwong

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Spent two and a half days with work colleagues doing field work. Stayed at a country pub and are meals at a table, sat at a bar. The trip went well, we found lots of the rare plants we went looking for. I'm doing things that were not possible a year ago, Like I am becoming re-socialized.
 
FountainandFairfax

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
Kiwong said:
Spent two and a half days with work colleagues doing field work. Stayed at a country pub and are meals at a table, sat at a bar. The trip went well, we found lots of the rare plants we went looking for. I'm doing things that were not possible a year ago, Like I am becoming re-socialized.
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That's so good to hear, Kiwong.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Can't be arsed... that how I feel. I also feel like I've barely slept since I started tidying up my room.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
lily said:
that's odd, usually you'd feel like you can sleep after working so hard.
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That’s true. But, up until last month, I spent a lotta time not really doing much. So, getting my room tidied up as well as getting out the house kinda gave my energy levels a bit of a boost. :bigsmile:

lily said:
I'm sorry to hear that Graeme1988, hope that something will be helpful for you soon. it's great you went to the concerts and stuff.
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Aye, the concert are a great wee break for me lately. Though, getting back into a proper daily routine would be even better for me. Am no really taking care of myself. Kinda suck that things haven’t really changed much in the past year or so. :sad:
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Can’t sleep... again ! :sad:

Though, tae be fair, am still more than a wee bit pissed off at my mother for nagging at and guilt tripping me for prioritising my needs over hers, yesterday. :kickingmyself: But it was my fault... apparently! Cuz drawing attention to the fact yer own mother is an impatient, pushy person is frowned upon in my family. Just below the top spot of trying to play peacemaker during an argument... which is always fun. :eek:h:

Also, in the 30 years that I’ve been alive noo, am still trying work oot why it is that - for some reason - I’m supposed to just take being treated like $h!te by ma own family? Am guessing there must be summit really unlikeable about me, eh? Cuz every time I answer back, or give as good as I get, they get offended and upset. :idontknow:
 
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