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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
BlueDays said:
Has something bad happened, Graeme?

(I mean something "other" than the bad stuff already going on in your life)
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Kinda. Got a letter yesterday saying I need to re-apply if I want to continue receiving my disability benefit payments. Has to be done afore the end o’ the month or I won’t get my benefits anymore.

And am just dreading that I get put through a medical exam to prove that I’m not trying to play the system. :sad:
And if that happens, the outcome could mean I get my benefit reduced in terms of the money I receive, which could mean a struggle just getting by.

As for the “other” stuff... I’m ready tae f*ckin’ snap. :kickingmyself:
 
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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I... Ah give up. :kickingmyself: Cannae f*ckin' cope with this BS much longer. :sad:

I realised last year that there's nae getting through to some folk. And I'm tired of being seen as a joke by my family every time I give my perspective. To be telt that ah don't care f*ckin' hurts big time, though. :crying:

But if my mother wants to slowly kill herself through being lazy, then so be it. I'm done trying to motivate her and be positive. Done! Am no spending the rest of my days helping and caring for someone who refuses to help themselves.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Empty. Lost. Alone. And betrayed yet again. :sad: :kickingmyself:

If ye find yerself feeling trapped in an emotionally abusive relationship... do yerself a favour, and leave.
No second chances, no working it out. Just walk away.
People who repeatedly “promise” you that they’ll change never actually do.
 
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theslowesthand

theslowesthand

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I'm currently situated in "boredom valley" today, and indeed most days. :kickingmyself:
Seem to have exhausted all my options for gaining stimulation. :sad:
 
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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

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Like I'm always carrying this huge weight upon my shoulders. I think I might start drinking again... that's buckin' depressed I am. :sad:

And I've managed to do my lower back in... again! ::(:
 
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grapevine

grapevine

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Been going really awesome since last Wednesday. Completely changed my diet and given up completely the processed foods for good. There's no reason for me to excuse the fact that i just cannot handle those foods anymore. It feels really good to walk away from them once again. Id been 2 years eating this way- the 80 percent raw vegan. Then i changed again back to processed. I forgot what it felt like in the raw - all my aches and pains/inflammation and low energy, even my stress feels lower than normal from just these 5 days. Its not even hard. Just giving up the packet snacks and eating my raw meals and juicing.... all makes a huge huge difference to me. I feel like im back on my journey again.
 
BlueDays

BlueDays

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^ :thumbup: I admire people who manage to cut out all processed foods, grapevine.




I am feeling even more worthless than usual today. :kickingmyself:

It's no coincidence that the more worthless a person feels, the easier it is to manipulate and control them.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Can’t sleep due to my lower back pain being excruciating. :crying:
Last time I felt this level of pain was when I went through surgery to correct some issues relating to my disability.

Other than that, I wish I was living independently right now. At least then I’d have more control over my diet. Cuz I’m not in good health at the moment, neither is my mother, but she doesn’t seem to give a f*ck. :thumbdown: Thinks whole idea of how yer diet affect ya physically is ”silly” :eek:h:
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
Graeme1988 said:
Can’t sleep due to my lower back pain being excruciating. :crying:
Last time I felt this level of pain was when I went through surgery to correct some issues relating to my disability.
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Oh no. Excruciating pain is no fun. I've had that with my teeth, with an infection or big hole. I had to bite into a handkerchief to handle it (barely)., for hours or days on end.

Did you put your back out?

Maybe you could try some back exercises, if the pain permits. Such as lay on the floor for several minutes, to let the disks re-align. Pulling each knee to your chest. And if possible, bring both knees to chest, rock from side to side, effectively "massaging" your spine. :question:
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
'You're wasting time' (song)

Aye, it's captain morgan's spiced rum ere, with gingery ale, and a dash of coke

Impulsive urge = "impurge" (who knew?)

Now playing: Bruford - Gradually Going Tornado
Age Of Information - YouTube

And last but not least, i feel i'm going CRAZY with isolation!!!
 
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theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
I'm a rockin & a rollin in this little wee caravan, in a pretty wild little autumn storm .. power going off & on. Feeling like i'm in a frickin amusement park ride!!!

But never mind, i've got some good ol' pirate's rum in me belly, to keep me warm'n'toasty...
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
theslowesthand said:
Oh no. Excruciating pain is no fun. I've had that with my teeth, with an infection or big hole. I had to bite into a handkerchief to handle it (barely)., for hours or days on end.

Did you put your back out?

Maybe you could try some back exercises, if the pain permits. Such as lay on the floor for several minutes, to let the disks re-align. Pulling each knee to your chest. And if possible, bring both knees to chest, rock from side to side, effectively "massaging" your spine. :question:
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I did put my back out, but don’t know how it happened from me simply get up out of a chair yesterday. :idontknow:

Thanks for those exercise suggestions, I’ll try those today. :thumbup:
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Why does nuthin’ ever work out for me ? :kickingmyself:
Ah could just f*ckin’ greet, but then ah would probably stop if ah did. :crying: :sad:
Nay point asking for help cuz ah never get it, anyway.
 
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grapevine

grapevine

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Wish we had rain.
I woke up early to feed the chickens. I woke up too early and now really grumpy and agonising over a certain dominant someone once again who has no respect for boundaries and uses people. Making resentments gather and setting up for a day of tiredness rather than happy energy for work today.
 
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